Light awoke with a start; fearing what happened the night before was just a dream. He was afraid to turn over and find instead of L an empty spot on the bed once again. He slowly turned his head to see and was overjoyed to see that messy mass of black hair facing him. He rolled over and buried his face in L’s hair as he wrapped his arm around him. L awoke at the touch and turned around to face him.
“Good morning,” he said as Light leaned in to kiss him.
“It really is,” Light answered and kissed him again, “You have no idea how glad I am to wake up and see you.” L smiled at him, running a hand through Light’s hair.
“I have some idea,” he answered. “I have missed my bed almost as much as I missed you,” he added stretching out completely. Light laughed and crawled over him, almost groaning at how good it felt for their bodies to be touching.
“I have missed you so much,” he whispered leaning down to gently brush his lips against L’s, “So much that I can hardly believe you’re home.” He ran a hand through the raven hair, slightly tangled from sleep but still incredibly soft.
“I know, I’m sorry I’ve been such a fool but that’s nothing new lately is it,” L breathed back, moaning softly at the soft touch of Light’s lips on his. Light lay on L completely, grinding against him slowly.
“I need to welcome you back properly,” he said leaning down and kissing L’s neck, “Every part of me has missed you desperately,” he said grinding again. L closed his eyes and wrapped his arms around him, moaning softly again as he moved against him as well.
“Yes, I think that would be a wonderful idea,” he whispered, moving his hands up Light’s back and into his hair.
“I love you,” Light whispered, moving against him again, his lips hovering over L’s, just enough for L to be able to feel his breath against them. L found that incredibly erotic, a tease that was making him want him more; and he knew Light was aware of it.
“I love you too,” he answered as he moved his hands to the back of Light’s head and forced him down so their lips met. When they did he took control of the kiss, forcing his tongue into Light’s mouth without waiting for permission.
Light moaned against his mouth, his tongue welcoming and wrapping around L’s as their bodies moved against each other. Light finally pulled away and began to kiss down L’s jaw, to his neck and back up to his mouth while L’s hands ran up and down his back, stopping only to card through his hair. His hips moved up to meet Light’s; the friction the grinding against each other’s erections was both delicious and maddening at the same time. Light pulled away from his mouth long enough to get up on his knees and hook his fingers into the waistband of L’s boxers, pulling them down as L lifted his hips to help him remove them. Light then moved back to kiss him again, while allowing one hand to move down L’s body, until he had wrapped his hand around him. L gasped at the touch, immediately moving his hips to push himself against Light’s hand. Light stroked him as he continued to kiss L’s neck, finding his favorite spot and nipping at the sensitive skin before kissing it again.
He continued to kiss down L’s body, then moved his hand so he could take him into his mouth. L’s moans increased in intensity and his hands tugged at Light’s hair; his hips moving to press himself deeper into the warmth of Light’s mouth. Light put his hands on L’s hips and held him in place as he worked his tongue and mouth around him, drawing back to suck on the tip before taking him deep into his throat. He moaned around L’s dick as the sounds he was getting from him excited him just as much, his own need quickly becoming unbearable.
“Light…if you don’t stop…” L panted not wanting to cum without Light, but afraid he couldn’t hold back for much longer. Light grinned and continued to suck as he relieved himself of his own boxers. He then slowly pulled away and lowered himself on top of L, hissing slightly at the complete skin on skin contact. L wrapped his arms around him, leaning up to kiss Light’s face, neck and then his mouth, his desperate need obvious in each kiss. Light reached over to the nightstand, quickly finding the lube and pulled back long enough to use it on himself and then on L, smirking as L moved against his hand. He raised L’s hips and pushed himself forward, groaning loudly as he entered him. L’s hands moved to grip the sides of the bed, his head falling back against the pillows and moving against Light to help him move deeper inside him.
Light began to move almost immediately, slowly at first but then increasing his speed quickly when L wrapped his legs around his waist, and his arms around him again, his nails digging into his back. L needed to be made love to, he had to have it proven to him that he hadn’t destroyed what they had in any permanent way and he could tell by the way Light treated him. This time it wasn’t angry sex, it wasn’t Light displacing his anger and upset into the act, it was pure love he felt and nothing else. Filled with relief he completely relaxed, whispering Light’s name as he moved his hips to meet each thrust, pushing to do more as he reached up and wrapped his fingers around tufts of hair and pulled.
Light growled in response, angling himself to make sure he hit L’s prostate with every powerful thrust. He began to tremble as he felt himself nearing the edge, sweat beading on his forehead and chest, his mind only on the intense pleasure and giving as much as he to L as he was getting. He could feel L’s muscles tightening around him and knew he was close as well, his eyes closed as he moaned Light’s name. “Look at me L, look at me right now!” he nearly growled the order and L’s eyes opened quickly, staring back into Light’s eyes. “I love you…” Light told him, saying it as if it was coming from his deepest part of his body. He then reached under L’s back and pulled him up, moving so that he could stretch his legs and pull L into his lap. His hands braced L’s back as he began to pound up into him, refusing to let himself cum; their eyes still locked into each other’s. L broke contact only when his orgasm overtook him, and shook him right down to his core. Light held him even tighter and then allowed himself to finally release, holding L against him as he thrusted one last time.
“That…was…amazing,” L panted, “I…God I love you…” he added as he struggled to catch his breath. Light nodded as he also struggled with his breathing, kissing the top of L’s head as he continued to hold him in his lap.
“If you really do, you will never scare me like this again,” he finally answered before allowing them both to fall onto the bed. He gathered L in his arms, his head on his shoulder, their legs tangled together.
“Scare you? How did I scare you?” L asked finally, “What did I do to scare you?”
“You left me, without any guarantee you were coming back,” Light answered. L shook his head.
“I told you I would be back Light, I told you that you were my life and that I’d be back, whether or not I straightened out my mind sufficiently or not. I would come back to you.” Light shook his head.
“What you said in the heat of that moment when we were both upset and arguing, and what you would really do when you finally got your mind together could have been two different things,” Light explained, “I was terrified I’d get a phone call that said you weren’t coming back. That you fell back into the life you had before, solitary, cut off from every one, living for the thrill of the case.” L pushed himself up on one elbow and frowned at him.
“You honestly thought that after everything we’ve been through together, to BE together that I could easily just give this up simply because you were out of my sight?” he asked and Light shook his head.
“I never said you could have done it easily, but you’ve been L a lot longer than you’ve been with me,” he sighed and looked at him, “There were times when I wondered exactly which one you would give up if you had to, me or being L. When you didn’t turn me in you managed to come up with a way to keep both, but if it actually came down to it…sometimes I wondered.”
“You have so little faith in me, in our relationship that you actually worry about that?” L said, the hurt obvious in his voice, “How could you imagine such a thing?”
“I never imagined that there would ever be a problem that was too big that we couldn’t work it out together, and yet that happened. It was as if I was watching my greatest fear begin to materialize and I…” L looked away.
“And you went to someone else,” he interrupted and Light sat up, grabbing L and shaking his head violently.
“No…God no and especially not with him!” he said the distaste obvious. “Not only was I without you physically and emotionally, I was without my intellectual equal…I was missing our conversations, discussions, even arguments almost as much as I was missing you. When I met Hayami…intellectually he was close to you and I enjoyed that. There was never anything else, I had no physical attraction to him, there was nothing else about him that interested me at all!” he chuckled, “Unless I wanted to risk a myriad of social diseases.”
L looked at him skeptically. “And I suppose Matsuda has gone mute?” he asked and then chuckled himself when Light raised an eyebrow in amusement. “Sorry, as much as I care for Matsuda I know he isn’t your intellectual equal, that was foolish of me,” he said then reached up and caressed Light’s face, “But it does upset me that you didn’t have the trust in our relationship, or what I feel for you that you allowed yourself to worry about the possibility I wouldn’t come home.”
“It isn’t that I didn’t trust our relationship, or your love for me, but the mere fact that you could just walk away…for whatever reason…shook my idea of our foundation, and terrified me. I’m sorry if that hurts you, I didn’t mean it that way, I just…I just don’t want it to ever happen again. There shouldn’t be anything that we can’t work out together, especially with everything we’ve already dealt with.” L nodded and leaned forward, gently kissing Light’s mouth.
“I can understand that,” he said finally, “It never crossed my mind that you would worry about that because leaving you permanently was the furthest thing from my mind,” he said, “And I apologize for making you feel that I could do something like that. I love you Light, and if I had to make a choice, I would never choose being L over being with you.” Light sighed and kissed him again, running his fingers through his hair, and holding him tightly against him.
L’s thumb came to his mouth in thought as his head lay on Light’s shoulder in thought. He may not have damaged his relationship per se, but he did damage Light. It would take some time before he was completely comfortable again, that his shaken foundation was rock solid again. It didn’t matter how long it took, he would build it back up again.
After a few moments he pulled away. “I think we need a shower. I’m looking forward to my bathroom…the girl’s dorm leaves a lot to be desired.” He said sliding off the bed and Light laughed.
“I can imagine,” he said and slid off of the bed with him, “I’m trying to picture you in a dorm style shower and I can’t.”
L was already in the bathroom and sighed happily. “Now this is a shower,” he said sliding the glass door away from the spacious stall. He reached in and turned on the water then turned and took Light’s hand. Light smiled and followed him into the shower, closing the class doors behind him.
Matsuda called for the third time, beginning to get nervous that he wasn’t getting an answer. He put his phone on the table and ran a hand through his hair.
“Still no answer?” his girlfriend asked as she came into the room with coffee, “Maybe he’s sleeping in today, it is the weekend.” She handed him a cup and he sighed after thanking him.
“It’s not like him to not have his phone nearby anyway Suki,” he said taking a sip, “But maybe you ‘re right.” He took another sip and seemed to make a mental decision. “I think I need to go over and check on him. That slimy Hayami could have talked him into anything. I’d call Wammy but I don’t have his number.”
“I’ll come with you,” Suki said finishing her coffee, “Maybe we can take him out to breakfast; I don’t like him being there alone.”
“Me either…but I think I should go alone, you know, Light’s a very private person.” Suki chuckled and nodded.
“Alright, but let me know what’s going on. You haven’t heard anything from Ryuzaki I take it?”
“No, and I don’t want to call him again. He might get mad at me and Ryuzaki mad, even an ocean away, is not something I look forward to.” She laughed again and stood up from the table, leaning down and giving him a kiss.
“You’re such a good friend,” she said as he stood up. “I’m sure he’s fine and this has nothing to do with that “slimy Hayami” as you put it. I know you’re not going to rest until you know for sure, however. Just remember to call me.” She kissed him again then walked him to the door.
“Thanks Suki for understanding, I’ll be right back as soon as I know he’s okay,” he said before going out of the door.
“It’s part of the reason why I love you Touta,” she called after him then laughed when he ran back and kissed her once more before leaving.
They had made love again while in the shower and finally managed to get out when their hunger for food began to overtake their hunger for each other. They walked out of their bedroom and weren’t completely surprised to smell coffee and food in the main room.
“The phantom Watari strikes again,” Light said then shook his head, putting his hands on his hips as he watched L dry his hair with a towel, “When will you learn that drying your hair that way will break off the ends? Don’t you ever listen to me?”
“Of course I listen to you,” L said drying it even more vigorously, “I listen to you each and every time you tell me. I dislike blowing hot air in my face.” He answered.
“You’re supposed to be blowing it on your hair, not your face, genius,” Light laughed taking the towel away from him and petting down the wild hair. L stared up at him, his thumb at his lips and eyes wide. Light looked at him and shook his head with a chuckle.
“That’s not going to work on me Lawliet,” he said walking towards the table, “Come and get breakfast.” L sighed and followed him to the table.
“I seem to be losing my touch,” he grumbled as Light poured him coffee. He looked down at his phone on the table as it vibrated that he had messages. Light picked it up and shook his head.
“Matsuda has been looking for me,” he said as he flipped through the calls, “Apparently he’s called three times. He’s going to be annoyed.” L sipped his coffee and rolled his eyes.
“Just tell him you were fucking your brains out and he’ll be fine,” he answered almost making Light choke on his coffee. Before he could answer there was a knock on their door, which startled both of them. “Light? Are you in there?” came Matsuda’s voice thru the door. L shook his head and laughed.
“Someone wants you,” he said sitting at the table and deciding what he wanted to eat.
“I’m going to revoke his privileges,” Light said going to the door and opening it to see a very relieved looking Matsuda.
“Oh wow you are okay!” he said with a sigh, “When you didn’t answer after three times I was beginning to worry,” he added walking in the door. “What were you doing that you ignored your phone? You really….” He stopped when a robe-clad L walked into his view, coffee cup in his hands.
“He was busy, do I have to explain what he was busy doing?” Matsuda blinked in surprise.
“You’re home! That’s great, what a relief! I…” then he realized that Light was also in a robe and the color rose to his face. “I…I see. Um...well…welcome home Ryuzaki…I’ll let you continue… I mean I’ll let you get back to what you were doing…I mean…” he just stopped and ran out of the door.
“Thanks for checking on me Matsuda,” Light called after him and closed the door to face a chuckling L. “You know you certainly can be an ass when you want to,” he said walking over to him and taking him in his arms.
“Yes well, did you really want him hanging around asking questions? I care a great deal for Matsuda, he is a great friend and a gifted detective, however, his presence would only be in the way right now.” He leaned forward and kissed him. “I must thank him for taking such good care of you.” Light chuckled and kissed him back before leading him back to the table.
“He did try, I admit I wasn’t the easiest person for him to keep up with,” he admitted, “Especially with this case…” L raised an eyebrow as he reached for fruit.
“Ah yes this case; why don’t we discuss this case over breakfast, I’d like to know more about it…if you don’t mind.” Light nodded as he reached for toast.
“No, I don’t mind, I’d appreciate your thoughts on it,” he said and began to explain.