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Metamorphosis 25

Mello snapped another piece of his chocolate bar as he listened to Matt tell him about his meeting with A.  They were both sitting outside by the lake watching the younger students enjoy their recess.  Now that they ‘d made the offer to A and he had taken it, the next thing to worry about was how B was going to handle the news.

“He seemed happy to know we were looking out for A when I spoke to him,” he said, “He even thanked me, so I don’t think it’s going to be a problem that we take him with us.  Who knows how long he’s going to be locked away in the first place, A can’t stop living because he made a mistake.”

Matt pulled out a cigarette and lit it up.  “You do know they’re going to move Beyond in a few days to a facility and out of the hospital, right?” he asked and Mello nodded with a sigh.

“Yea, I know,” Mello answered laying back on the grass, “They wanted to send him to Broadmoore…” Matt nearly dropped his cigarette.

“Broadmoore? That’s the high security one where they keep serial killers right? Holy shit that would have been awful…” he said and Mello nodded his agreement.

“Wammy got it changed to Maudsley, reminding him that he hadn’t killed anyone and he certainly wasn’t a serial killer.  Apparently there’s a private floor there that’s used for special people, not the general public, and somehow Wammy got him on that floor.  Makes me wonder just who Wammy really is that he’s able to do things like that.”  Matt ran a hand through his hair, pulling his goggles up over his head.

“”Who knows but thank God he is whatever he is,” he said, “That place…I’ve heard nothing but horror stories about Broadmoore, it’s more like a prison than a hospital.  Beyond couldn’t have taken it being in there.”

“Nope, he would have really gone insane there.  As it is, I worry that he’s never going to be himself again anyway, not really.”  Matt reached over and took Mello’s hand.

“Yea, I know you worry about that, I do too a little.  He’s…different and I can’t put my finger on exactly what it is, but I think eventually he’s going to get through this.”  Mello nodded then reached up and pulled Matt down on top of him.

“Every time I look at A I think about what I would do if it were me, if you were locked away from me.” He ran his fingers through the red hair before grabbing a fistful and pulling Matt down and into a kiss; Matt barely blowing his smoke out in time.
“I know what I’d do,” he finally answered himself when his lips left Matt’s, “I’d lose my fucking mind.  You’re everything to me Matt; I don’t think I could function without you anymore.”  Matt grinned at him as he moved hair from in front of the blonde’s eyes.

“I know you’re helpless without me, but that’s okay, I enjoy having job security,” he leaned down to kiss him again when he heard the sound of someone clearing their throat above him.  They both looked up to see Wammy standing in front of them, his arms crossed against his chest, and unhappy look on his face.  

“Have I not made it clear that public displays of affection are not to be done?” he asked them sternly, trying not to laugh as they scrambled quickly away from each other and standing up, Matt hastily dropping the cigarette and stepping on it as he stood up.

“Sorry,” Matt apologized, “I guess we got a little carried away.”

“So it appears,” Wammy agreed, “You know I have no problem with your relationship, however, I cannot speak for every teacher here and I dislike getting phone calls from teachers complaining of lewd behavior in plain view of the younger children.”

“Lewd behavior?” Mello nearly yelled, “We just kissed, it’s not as if we were naked and humping in the grass!” Matt chuckled then stopped when Wammy’s eyes moved to stare at him.

“For some with narrow minds two young men kissing is considered lewd behavior, and not appropriate behavior in front of children, I’m sure I don’t have to explain that to you,” Wammy explained, “Now, come with me, I wish to discuss everything you’ve dealt with in your visits with Beyond and Alexander.”  As he turned and walked away, Mello nodded, looking across to where the children were playing and eyeing what teachers were out there, wondering which ones had complained.  Matt saw him and punched his shoulder.

“Stop it, it’s not worth trying to figure out which one ratted on us,” he said knowing his boyfriend far too well.

“Yea, well it would be worth it to me,” Mello nearly growled and then sighed, “But you’re right, it would cause more trouble than it’s worth.” He reached down and took Matt’s hand, “If they don’t like handholding they can suck my…”

“Mello!” Wammy turned back on him sudden, “I would rather not hear what you are suggesting they suck, thank you very much.”   Matt burst out laughing as Mello’s face reddened; he hadn’t thought Wammy could hear him. He turned on the laughing Matt and pushed him so that he fell over into the grass; still laughing.

The soft knocking finally wormed its way into Light’s subconscious and he woke, sitting up and looking around as to where that sound was coming from.   He rubbed his eyes and realized someone was at the door.  He looked down at the still sleeping Lawliet and smiled, then slid out of the bed quietly and walked out of the bedroom.

“Hey,” he said in surprise as he discovered A on the other side of the door,  “Come on in.”

“Thank you,” A said quietly, “I could understand if you said no…” Light yawned and shook his head.

“Don’t be silly,” he said closing the door behind him, “Lawliet’s still asleep, I’m sure you heard about what happened in the halls.”  A nodded.

“Yea, that’s part of the reason I’m here, I wanted to make sure he was alright.  I mean, in reality, it’s my fault you were both hurt in the first place.”  Light sighed and shook his head.

“It’s not your fault that Beyond became violent; there were other ways to handle what he thought had happened that didn’t involve a knife,” he smiled, “You want something to drink we’ve got juice and ginger beer.”  A nodded giving him a grateful smile.

“Ginger beer would be great,” he answered as Light opened the fridge, “And if you don’t mind, I wonder if I could talk to you about something.”  Light pulled two bottles of the soft drink from the fridge then handed one to A.

“Of course, is something wrong?” he asked moving towards the couch, “Has something happened to BB?”   A shook his head as he joined Light on the couch.

“I don’t know if you were aware of the fact that they’re moving BB from the hospital to a facility where he can continue to get better,” he began and Light nodded.

“I did hear that, do you know where he’s going?”

“Maudsley in London,” A answered, “Wammy says it’s a good place, and maybe he’ll be out of there in six months to a year, depending on how he does.”

“He’s probably right, BB isn’t insane he’s just ill, I’m sure he’ll do well and get out quickly, then you two can get on with your lives.” Light said before taking a sip.

“Yea, that’s what Wammy said too, and he’s supposed to go there in two days but I don’t think they‘ve told him yet.  I think they want me and Wammy there when they tell him, just in case he gets…you know…upset about the move.”

“Well, I guess that makes sense, to have you both there for support,” Light agreed.

“I know, but I also have to tell him about the plans that I’ve made for after graduation with Matt and Mello.  They’ve offered to take me with them, to work with them until BB gets out, I’m just afraid how he’s going to see it. I’d talk to Mello about it but he’s too close to BB, I don’t think he can be objective.”  Light sighed and ran a hand through his hair.

“My advice is not to tell him anything until after this move, that’s going to be upsetting enough to him that anything else might push him too far.  We’ve still got several months before graduation, plenty of time to let him know about that.”

“That’s what I was thinking too, I just don’t want him to think I’m hiding anything.”

“You’re not, you’re just waiting for the best time to tell him and after the move would be the best time,” Light advised as he finished his drink, then looked up as there was a quick knock at the door before it opened and Wammy came in pushing a trolley. Both teens stood up as he came in.

“I thought I’d bring food for you and Lawliet,” Wammy said as he pushed the trolley into the room, “A…I didn’t know you were here, but I’m sure there’s enough here if you’d like to join them.”  The blonde shook his head.

“No, thank you Mr. Wammy,” he said putting his bottle down, “I only came to see how Lawliet was and bounce some ideas off of Light,” he sighed, “And I’ll be ready whenever you want to go see BB about the move.”   Wammy nodded as he took things from the trolley and placed them on the table.

“After dinner this evening, about 8:00 p.m.,” he answered and A nodded before turning to Light.

“Thank you for talking to me,” he said before going to the door, “Tell Lawliet I hope he feels better soon.”

“It was no problem,” Light answered, “And I’ll tell him, but you can probably see him later this evening anyway, I’m sure he’ll be awake soon.”   A smiled and with one more quick nod he left the apartment.  Light looked at Wammy as he continued to work on their dinner.

“Thanks Wammy, this looks great,” he said, “Everything Lawliet likes.”  Wammy smiled.

“Yes, I thought I’d treat him a bit, he’s been through quite a lot,” he answered, “I…” he stopped when he heard the bedroom door open to reveal a very sleepy looking Lawliet who was rubbing his eyes.

“I smelled something good,” he said as he tried to hide a yawn, “And I realized I’m very hungry.”  Light chuckled as he moved quickly to Lawliet’s side, putting an arm around him to help him stand.

“You should have stayed in bed, I would have brought something to you,” he scolded and Lawliet shook his head.

“Can I please just sit on the couch for a while, I’m really tired of the bed,” Lawliet whined.  Light looked at Wammy and he nodded.

“Okay, you can sit on the couch for a little while,” Light told him as he moved him over and sat him down.  He smoothed down some of Lawliet’s hair that was even wilder than normal after being in bed and kissed his forehead.  “How are you feeling?” he asked, frowning slightly at the bruise that had formed on his face from Misa’s hit.

“Other than a little groggy, I feel fine, “ Lawliet answered trying to look past Light to the table, “Everything smells so good…” he said and Light chuckled as Wammy brought over a dish filled with food and placed it on the coffee table in front of the teen.

“Here you are, I’m sure there’s a lot more taste in this than in the hospital food you‘ve been eating for the past two weeks,” he said with a smile, then frowned himself when he saw the bruise on Lawliet’s face.  “My she did use a great deal of force didn’t she?” he said placing his fingers under the boy’s chin and examining the mark.  Lawliet pulled his face away, still embarrassed over the situation.

“I’m fine,” he grumbled as he reached for his plate.

“I could kill her for that,” Light nearly growled, his anger returning as he thought about what could have happened.

“No talking of killing anyone,” Wammy said turning to look at him, “After recent events even saying it in jest is no longer allowed.”  Light’s eyes narrowed as his gaze traveled from Lawliet’s face to Wammy’s.

“I didn’t say I was jesting,” he said the anger still strong, “She could have sent him back to the hospital, she could have really hurt him…”

“Light, I’m fine,” Lawliet soothed reaching out and taking the brunette’s hand and smiling at him,  “So take a deep breath and stop being angry.  Get something to eat and join me.”  Light ran a hand through his hair and did take a deep breath before smiling back.

“Okay, I guess I am pretty hungry now that I think about it,” he squeezed Lawliet’s hand before turning and getting something to eat.  Wammy went into the kitchen and made himself a cup of tea, then joined the teens in the living room.

“I thought I should bring you up-to-date on what’s happening with Alexander and Beyond,” he said stirring his tea, “Because ultimately it will affect you.”    

Lawliet stopped mid-bite and shook his head.  “I don’t care what’s happening with Beyond, anymore than he cares what’s happening with me.  Our relationship as brothers or anything else is over.”

“I understand your feelings Lawliet,” Wammy said, “But for your own peace of mind…”

“I don’t care Wammy!” Lawliet shouted startling both Light and Wammy.  Light reached out and rubbed his back.

“It’s okay Lawliet, calm down,” he soothed, noticing that the teen had begun to tremble.  He looked up at Wammy and shook his head, suggesting that nothing more be said about Beyond.  The older man understood and nodded.

“Alright Lawliet nothing more will be said,” he said and finished his tea before standing up.  “I have an appointment in a bit and we will have out meeting when I return.  I think you should sit this one out, Lawliet.”

“That sounds good,” Light said continuing to rub Lawliet’s back, “He could use the extra night’s rest anyway.”  Lawliet turned to look at him, a grateful smile on his face even if it didn’t reach his wide eyes  that were still filled with unease.  Wammy rested a hand on Lawliet’s shoulder.”

“I’m sorry Wammy, I…I didn’t mean to raise my voice to you,” he apologized.

“It’s alright, I understand.  For right now just enjoy your dinner, and I’ll check on you when I return,” he said with a smile, getting a nod from the teen before he turned and left the apartment.  He was quite concerned about Lawliet’s obvious fear of Beyond.  While it would be natural for him to be wary after everything that had happened, the depth of the fear seemed excessive.  He’d deal with that later, right now he had to deal with telling Beyond he was being moved.

When he had closed the door behind him, Lawliet sighed heavily and looked at Light in embarrassment.

“I’m really sorry I did that, it just…I just…I’m terrified of Beyond Light, I’m so afraid of what he might do to me if he ever gets out…” Light put down his dinner and pulled Lawliet to him, wrapping his arms around him.

“Of course you ‘re afraid of him, he tried to fucking kill us.  Believe me I’m not overly thrilled with him either right now but I’m also sure that by the time we see him again he’ll be well and not a danger to us.  I know it’s got to be worse for you, you’re brothers and no matter how much you didn’t get along before, this is the last thing you expected to happen.  Don’t apologize, I understand.”   Lawliet clung to Light’s shirt, his face buried against his chest as he fought against tears.

“I love you Light,” he whispered against him.  Light reached down and pulled him away from his chest, moving wild hair from his face, before leaning down to kiss him gently.

“I love you too, and you’ll get through this.  Right now let’s just work on you getting stronger and finish healing; let’s not think about Beyond.”  Lawliet nodded and reached up running fingers through Light’s hair.

“Let me help you back to bed, then I’ll clean this up and lie down with you until time for the meeting; we can watch some TV.” He kissed the top of Lawliet’s head before wrapping an arm around him to help him stand.  He brought him back into the bedroom, got him into bed and then kissed him again.

“I’ll be right back, I’m just going to put the dishes away.”  

“Okay, I’ll pick out something to watch,” Lawliet said grabbing the remote as Light walked out of the room, “Bring back a snack!” he added making Light laugh; as long as Lawliet wanted his sweets he knew he was okay.

BB was startled awake by the sound of the door opening in his room.  He sat up quickly hoping to see A again, but instead it was two male orderlies and his doctor.  He knew immediately something was up, they had never brought in two assistants before, usually just one along with the doctor or nurse that was going to treat him.  His eyes narrowed as he stared at them.

“Good evening Beyond,” the doctor said far too cheerfully for BB’s liking, “I’m sorry to wake you but I have something to discuss with you.  I originally wanted to wait until your family members had arrived but unfortunately the timing has changed and we need to get moving now.”

“What are you talking about?” BB asked as the two orderlies flanked either side of him; the doctor pulling a chair closer to him.

“We are simply the psychiatric floor of the hospital,” the doctor began, “You have been coming along just fine, however, we believe you’re going to need more in-depth and sustained care to get you to the point where you can leave and live your life the way you wish to.  In that vein, we are going to move you to  Maudsley Hospital, an institution where you can get the best care possible.”

BB was furious but he knew if he showed the least bit of anger or tried to fight it, they ‘d only restrain him again and he didn’t want that.  Why wasn’t A here? Did he even know they were moving him?  Would A know where to find him?  He fought back the panic, keeping himself breathing as naturally as he could.   He nodded and looked up at the doctor.

“Alright, fine, I understand,” he said finally, “But can I see Alexander first so that he knows where I’m going?” he asked.  The doctor shook his head.

“We’ll contact him and let him know that you’re going,” he said, “We were planning to move you in a couple of days so you could get used to the idea, but it appears they want to get you there tonight so they can set up tests and evaluations first thing in the morning.   So there’s no time for that right now, I’m afraid.”  He tried to fight it but he could feel the panic rising inside of him.  

“But I have to talk to him first, I have to make sure he knows…I can’t just leave he’ll be worried…” he began and the doctor nodded at the two others who moved closer to BB.

“I understand your concern and this was not the way we had planned it, but we have no choice in the matter.” He stood up and reached into his pocket, going over to the IV set up by BB’s bed.  One of the orderlies reconnected the IV to the port in BB’s hand.  

“Now you just lie down and relax, I’m going to give you something to let you sleep and when you wake up, you‘ll be in your new room.”  BB shook his head, he didn’t want to go to sleep, he wanted to talk to A, he had to talk to A, he was terrified of what was happening and he needed A.  

“No…please let me talk to Alexander first, please…” he begged, something he never did and he hated it.  His only answer was to be forced down on his back as the doctor injected the medication into the IV.

“You just relax Beyond, and you’ll be there soon,” he said soothingly.  Beyond thought quickly and allowed himself to relax, let his eyes flutter closed.  The Doctor watched him for a moment then nodded to the other two to let him go.  They did and they all turned and walked out of the room, the door locking behind them.  The moment they were gone BB turned on his side, knowing his back was to the security camera, reached across with one hand and slowly removed the iv from the port in the other hand.  After a few moments he slid the needle into the bandage next to the port so it looked as if it were still connected to him.  He began to take deep breaths, realizing that if he’d waited just a moment more it would have been too late and he would have been asleep.

His mind worked on what he would do; he didn’t understand why A wasn’t there, why he didn’t tell him himself that they were going to move him when he was there earlier.  Did Matt and Mello know and they just didn’t tell him either?  He tried to fight the feeling of betrayal that was creeping in on him, they were his best friends, and they wouldn’t do that to him.  But he had to see A, he had to let him know they were taking him away before it was too late.

After about ten minutes he decided the medicine had passed thru and out of the IV and it would be safe for him to put it back into the port.  Moving very slowly he did just that, waiting for a moment to see if he felt drowsy at all and when he didn’t he smiled.  They’d think he was out cold, put him into some kind of ambulance and try to transport him, but it wouldn’t work. He wasn’t going anywhere except to see A.

Just as Wammy was making his way to the car, smiling when he saw A was already there waiting for him, his phone rang.  He opened the doors and slid in beside A as he answered, surprised it was the hospital.

“Quillish Wammy; Good evening doctor, yes, well we’re on our way,” he said, “We should be there in about ten…what do you mean it’s too late?”

A’s heart nearly stopped when he heard those words; what did he mean it was too late? “Wammy what’s happened?  Is BB okay?” he asked and then nearly backed away when he saw the look of intense anger on Wammy’s face.

“Have you any idea how incredibly stupid and dangerous this action is?  We will be at Maudsley as quickly as possible.”  He closed the phone and looked at A.

“They decided to move Beyond without waiting for us to arrive; we’ve got to get to Maudsley immediately!”    A tried not to panic as he flew into the car, but his heart was racing in fear.  

“Why Mr. Wammy, why did they do that when they knew we were coming?” he asked as the car took off down the driveway.

”Because they’re incredibly stupid,” Wammy nearly growled, “Be ready for anything from Beyond when we get there; I’m sure he will feel betrayed and frightened and this will put his advances at risk.”  A nodded and sat back in the seat, terrified of what he would find when he saw Beyond.

Beyond continued to feign sleep, listening to everything that was happening as they placed him in a stretcher and moved him out of the building and into a waiting ambulance.  He endured their checking his vitals and securing the stretcher so it wouldn’t move during the drive.  One attendant stayed by his side as the other went to drive the vehicle.  As they began to move, BB risked cracking open one eye to see his surroundings.  The attendant was sitting on his right side watching the traffic outside of the ambulance rather than watching him.  He imagined it was because he was supposed to be asleep, what kind of trouble would a sleeping teen be.  There was only one strap across his abdomen to keep him from falling from the stretcher, but his hands and arms were free and most importantly, so were his legs.

The rational side of him told him this was wrong, it was only going to make things worse, he should wait until he could get in contact with A. But what if they didn’t let him talk to A? There had to be a reason why A didn’t tell him about the move and it could only be because he didn’t know, this was all being done in secret; keeping A away from him.  He wouldn’t let that happen.  He suddenly reached up and grabbed the attendant by his shoulders, pulling him down quickly towards his knees that he immediately brought up as hard as he could, smashing them into the attendants face.  He heard the crunch of the cartilage in the attendant’s nose, saw blood fly as the man fell forward on to the stretcher and then sliding off onto the floor, out cold.  He quickly undid the strap across his abdomen and sat up going to the door.  He looked out of the window trying to gauge how fast they were going and if there was any traffic behind them.  At the moment it seemed clear and he realized it was probably his best chance, he took a deep breath, threw open the doors and jumped out of the moving ambulance, rolling as he landed trying to aim himself to the side of the road to get out of traffic.

When he finally stopped rolling he lay there for a few minutes trying to catch his breath and check himself to see if he broke anything.  He could see the back end of the ambulance as it continued down the highway; apparently the driver hadn’t realized what had happened yet, but soon would.  He sat up and checked himself, scratched and scraped but nothing worse than that.  He got up and made his way to the other side of the street and stuck out his thumb, hoping to get a ride quickly.  They hadn’t been on the road that long, he should have no trouble getting back to Wammy’s fairly quickly as long as he got a ride soon.

Wammy and A pulled up in front of Maudsley, with A practically running out of the car before it had stopped moving.  Wammy went to the desk and asked for BB’s room,  and the receptionist shook her head.

“This patient has not been brought in yet, he has not yet arrived.”   Wammy looked at A and back at the receptionist.

“But that’s not possible, he was picked up from the hospital almost an hour ago, he should have been here by now.”  The receptionist shook her head then picked up her phone and dialed the director and asked about the patient.  As she listened she looked shocked and then hung up, looking up at Wammy.

“It seems there’s been a problem, the patient managed to escape from the ambulance…” before she could finish Wammy and A had both run out of the building back to the car.

“If he’s escaped he’s on his way back to Wammy’s, probably going to find you because he doesn’t understand why he was being moved and you weren’t there…”   A fought back the panic as he thought about what B could have done.

“Did he hurt the ambulance driver? He didn’t…”

“I don’t believe he killed him if that’s what you’re worried about,” Wammy said, “But I’m sure he had to injure him somehow to get away.  We’ve got to get back to Wammy’s, if he doesn’t find you he’s going to go after Lawliet.  They jumped into the car and took off immediately, heading back to the school.

After the movie, Light looked at his watch and sighed.  “I need to go to the meeting,” he said sitting up and kissing Lawliet’s forehead. “Promise me you’ll behave yourself until I get back.”  Lawliet pouted but then nodded.

“I’ll stay right here and watch television,” he said, “Could you get me some more strawberries and tea before you leave and then I should be fine.”  Light chuckled and kissed him softly.

“More strawberries?  Absolutely,” he leaned forward and kissed him again, this time deeply and with as much love as he could put into it. “I can’t wait until you’re healed again, we were only able to make love once before all of this happened.”  Lawliet nodded and caressed his face.

“I know, I have a lot to make up to you and just as soon as I can, you know I will,” he said and leaned up and kissed him back, “I love you Light, thank you for staying with me.” Light smiled and nodded.

“Don’t thank me, I couldn’t leave if I wanted to; I love you Lawliet, even if you are a pain in the ass.” He laughed and then ducked as Lawliet swung at him then went out to get his strawberries and tea.

BB thanked the young man who gave him a ride to just outside of Wammy’s and jumped out of the car.  He made his way to the wall that surrounded the property and looked to see if any of the guards were patrolling the walls.  He noticed there were only a couple and he knew his way in and out of this place and made his way to a part of the wall that was very rarely patrolled, climbing up the wall and scurrying over it and across the grounds to the front door.

Once inside he put on the persona of his brother, making his way to his old room, assuming A would be there.  He opened the door and went inside, quickly closing the door behind him. “A?” he called, “A it’s me, where are you?”  he looked around the room and realized his lover wasn’t there.  What did that mean? Was he with Mello and Matt perhaps?  He nodded and headed to their room and stopped before knocking…he could tell by the sounds coming from behind the door that they were obviously alone hearing the sounds of kissing.  He smiled to himself; A certainly wouldn’t be in there with all that going on.  He stopped smiling when he realized the only other place A had to be then; with Lawliet.  If he wasn’t in their room, and not with Matt and Mello, where else could he be?   His eyes narrowed and he growled to himself, moving towards the stairway towards Lawliet’s apartment.  He ducked his head several times as students walked by, thinking he was his brother and asking if he was feeling better, his only answer a cursory nod.

Light made his way to Wammy’s apartment running into Near along the way.  The white haired genius smiled at him as he got closer.

“Hey Light, how’s Lawliet tonight?”   Light smiled back as he answered.

“Doing very well Near, shoving as many sweets down his throat as possible,” they both laughed and then went inside the apartment just as Matt and Mello came up behind him.  He looked around the apartment surprised he didn’t see Wammy.

“This is a first, Wammy not being here,” he said still looking around.  

“He and A had to go visit BB,” Mello said walking in, “To let him know he was being moved so he wouldn’t freak out when it happened.  It might be taking them longer than they expected.”  Light nodded his understanding.

“Lawliet wouldn’t even talk about BB,” he said, “Wammy tried to tell him what was going on and he just freaked.”

“Can’t say I blame him,” Matt answered, “It’s gotta do something to you when your own flesh and blood tries to kill you.”   Light nodded and then sat down.

“Has anyone heard from Wammy at all?” he asked noting the time.

“No, and it’s not like him to be late, even if he had something else to do, without calling,” Near said, his fingers twirling in his hair.

Light shook his head. “No, it’s not like him,” he reached to take his phone out of his pocket, “I think I should…” before he could finish his phone rang in his hand and he laughed, “It’s Wammy, what are the odds…” he said answering the call.

Beyond made it upstairs and to Lawliet’s door without a problem.  He tried the door and of course it was unlocked, Lawliet never locked a door.  He went inside and gently closed the door behind him; looking around to see if he could see or hear A anywhere.  He could hear the television in the bedroom and decided that’s where they had to be, which didn’t make him happy at all.   He made his way into the kitchen, opening drawers quietly until he found what he needed then walked to the bedroom.

“Wammy this is so unlike you to be late,” Light said, “I hope everything’s okay…”

“No, nothing is okay,” Wammy said, “Where are you right now?”

“In your apartment,” Light said filled with sudden worry, “Why what’s happened?”

“Beyond has escaped and I believe once he finds out that A isn’t there he will confront Lawliet. You need to get to him and make sure he’s safe, I should be there very shortly.” Light cursed, closed the call and began to move at the same time.

“BB has escaped,” he said to everyone who was staring at him in concern, “Wammy thinks he’s on his way here…I’ve got to get to Lawliet!” he turned and ran out of the room, followed by the others.

BB made his way to the bedroom and stopped at the door.  Lawliet was sitting up in bed eating strawberries and watching television, but A was nowhere to be seen.  Where could he be if he wasn’t here?  He walked into the room, one hand behind his back.

“Where is he Lawliet? What have you done with him?”   Lawliet’s head snapped up, his worst fear materialized in front of him.   He backed up against the back of the bed as far as he could.

“How did you get out? How did you get here?” he cried, his heart beating wildly in fear; the smile on BB’s face not helping at all.

“They thought they could separate me from A,” BB said moving closer to him, “So that he couldn’t find me but I can’t let that happen.  Is he here with you Lawliet? I can’t find him so I just assumed he was here…” he trailed off looking around the room, still keeping one hand behind his back.

“No no no he’s not here Beyond, I haven’t seen him since earlier today when he and Light were talking.  Please….Beyond…don’t hurt me anymore…” he begged as he pressed himself against the wall.

“No…he’s not here,” Beyond said almost to himself, “But where is he then? Do you know?” he moved closer to Lawliet until he was nearly on top of him, “Tell me where he is!” he demanded pulling the arm from behind him and waving the knife he had taken from the kitchen.  Lawliet screamed in fear, raising his arms in front of him to try to protect himself.

“I don’t know, I don’t know please I don’t know!!” he cried out, tears running down his face, his entire body trembling.

“NO!!! Don’t you hurt him again!” a scream of anger and fear came from behind them, Light screaming from the doorway as he tried to run in.  

“Don’t Light!” Lawliet screamed the warning remembering what happened the last time, and Mello and Matt grabbed Light before he could run in, afraid BB would turn on him if he did.  BB turned around, his smile wavering for just a moment when he saw Light trying to run in. He then saw his best friend and began to move towards him.

“You stay where you are!” he shouted to Light then turned to his friend, “Mello they’re trying to take me away from A, and Lawliet won’t tell me where he is!” he said almost in a childlike whine, “I wasn’t going to hurt him unless he didn’t tell me where A is!”  Mello let go of Light and shook his head walking towards BB, his hands outstretched.  Matt knew if anyone other than A could calm him down it would be Mello, but he was terrified not knowing which way BB could go.

“I know you don’t want to hurt anyone,” he said calmly, “You know A wouldn’t want you to hurt anyone again.  He was on his way to see you, I guess he missed you before they were going to transport you. I’m sure he’s on his way here now, so please, just put down the knife.”  BB listened, his own tears beginning to run down his face as he shook his head.

“He was coming, are you sure?” he asked lowering the knife as he talked.

“Yes BB he was on his way, he knew they were going to move you and he wanted to be there. Now he heard what happened and he’s on his way,” he kept walking towards him, “You didn’t hurt anyone on your way here did you?” he asked.

“I think I might broken a guy’s nose,” BB answered with a small chuckle, “But that’s all; I hitchhiked here but I didn’t hurt anyone,” he looked at Mello imploringly, “A’s going to be angry with me isn’t he?”  Mello shook his head.

“No, he’s just worried about you, but he won’t be angry with you.  Now, give me the knife, BB.” He asked, extending his hand even further to take the knife.  BB began to hand it to him then snatched it back, shaking his head.

“Not until I see A,” he said stubbornly, “I’ll give it to A when I see him.”  Light was still fighting with Matt for him to let him go so he could get to Lawliet. He could tell he was completely losing it curled up in the bed staring in terror at BB.

“BB…please let me go to Lawliet,” he begged, “Please!”  BB shook his head.

“Why should he have you when I don’t have A?” he asked turning back to look at Lawliet.  “That just isn’t fair…”

He was interrupted by the sounds of sirens coming closer to the building, their flashing lights becoming visible through the windows.  BB turned back to Mello in alarm.

“Don’t let them take me until I see A, don’t let them take me!” he begged.

“You have to give me the knife or they will,” Mello warned, “They don’t know you like I do BB, all they know is you escaped and you have a knife, that’s not good.”

“I don’t care, I have to see A first,” BB stubbornly insisted, “I’ll give it to him.”

“I’m here, give it to me BB,” A’s voice came from behind Light and Matt.  He walked into the room and directly to BB until they were face to face, “Give me the knife.” He repeated again, holding out his hand.  BB began to cry earnestly, dropping the knife into his lover’s hand then throwing his arms around him.

“They were going to take me away from you, where you couldn’t find me, I couldn’t let that happen.” He cried against him as A held him against his chest, handing the knife to Mello who quickly took it and moved to the kitchen, not wanting anyone in authority to think BB had it and make things worse.  Light broke away from Matt and ran past A and BB to Lawliet, gathering the trembling teen in his arms, rocking him back and forth to try and calm him.  

Wammy had been keeping the police and Maudsley attendants at bay, telling them it was best they let A handle it, and moved aside to let them go into the room.   A saw them coming and stroked BB’s back.

“BB, they’ve come to take you where you need to be so you’re safe,” he whispered, “I’m going to ride with you.”  BB nodded against him then looked up at him tearfully.

“Are you mad at me? I had to see you,” he asked and A smiled at him.

“I’m not mad BB, but next time just call me, okay ?” he said and BB smiled and nodded as two attendants moved to either side of him, taking his arms.   They moved him out of the room, accompanied by the police.  A began to follow them and Wammy grabbed his arm.

“I’ll be following in the car.  You did an excellent job,” he told him.  A nodded then moved to catch up with BB.

Matt went to Mello and held him, this was unhappily reminiscent of the first time BB lost control, but at least this time there was no blood and BB seemed to be calmer after seeing A.

“That was amazing Mello,” he told him, “I just wish you’d stop scaring the piss out of me. God do I need a cigarette…”   Mello had to chuckle at that and nodded.

“Yea and I could do with a breath of fresh air, and they need to be alone, come on,” he said gesturing towards Light and Lawliet.  He took Matt’s hand and they walked out of the apartment.  Near watched them go then looked at Wammy; he looked as if he’d aged a few years in just that few moments time.  It had felt like forever but in reality it had only been less than ten minutes.  

“If you’d like, I can ride with you Wammy,” he said, “I don’t think you should be driving alone after all of this.”  Wammy smiled at the young albino and nodded.

“I think I would appreciate that Near; just let me talk to Lawliet and I’ll be right with you.”  

“I’ll go down and wait at the car,” he said and went downstairs, weaving through the crowd of students that had gathered in the halls wondering what had happened.

Wammy went over to the two as they held each other, putting a hand on Light’s shoulder.

“He didn’t hurt you at all did he?” he asked Lawliet who shook his head, his face buried in Light’s chest.  “I’m so sorry this happened.  Rest assured that those in charge at the hospital who moved him without our seeing him will be taken care of, they are the cause of this relapse.  You need to try and sleep now Lawliet, you must be exhausted.” The boy shook his head, never raising it from Light’s chest.

“I can’t, I can’t sleep!  I’ll keep seeing him standing over me again with that knife every time I close my eyes like before. I can’t…I can’t…” he cried burying himself deeper into Light’s chest.

“I’ll get you something to help you sleep, you need to rest, so much as happened today,” Wammy said then left quickly.

Light continued to rub Lawliet’s back, rocking him back in forth in his harms, kissing the top of his head, trying to reassure him that everything was fine now, they were both fine and it was all over.

“It will never be over, not until he’s dead,” Lawliet cried his hands digging into Light’s back.

“No…no he’ll get better Lawliet,  and he won’t be a danger to anyone any more.  Until then he’s going to be locked away; he won’t be able to get out from that hospital.”   Lawliet said nothing, he only continued to cry against Light’s chest.

Wammy came back and quickly walked over to them, moving Lawliet’s clothes to get to his hip.

“I’m giving you something to help you rest,” he told him, then looked at Light, “This should take effect quickly and you both can get some rest.”   Lawliet shook his head and began to move away from Wammy.

“I don’t want to sleep, I don’t want to sleep, Light don’t let him put me to sleep…” he pleaded trying to get away.  Light held onto him tightly talking softly in his ear.

“It will be okay, I’m right here, no one is going to hurt you again,” he whispered holding him tightly against his chest as Wammy administered the shot making the teen cry out softly.

“I’ve got to go meet A, but I will check on you both when I get back,” he squeezed Light’s shoulder then ran out of the room.

Light waited until the shot took effect, feeling Lawliet suddenly relax against him, his hands finally dropping away from clutching his shirt tightly.  He lay him down on the bed pulling the blankets over him. He removed his own clothes, then climbed into bed beside him.

As he gathered Lawliet in his arms again, he finally broke himself.  The tears of the terror he felt running in there and seeing BB with a knife over Lawliet, having to watch Lawliet cower in fear, pressed up against the back of the bed as hard as he could nearly killed him.  He knew that if BB had decided to hurt him he wouldn’t have been able to reach him before he struck at least once and that could have been enough.  He held Lawliet tightly as he cried, his mind going over everything that could have gone wrong and that he could have lost Lawliet.

When he was finally cried out he buried his face in Lawliet’s hair and closed his eyes, trying not to jump at every little sound as he finally fell asleep.
Wammy finally made it back to his quarters and turned on the monitors to Lawliet’s apartment.  He had just heard of the altercation between he and Misa and he decided to give himself a few minutes to get control of his anger before going to see the young man.  He couldn’t imagine what possessed him to venture down into the school area in his condition; but he was going to find out.  First he’d make sure he hadn’t caused himself damage, but right after that he was planning to have several stern words with him ad renew the threat about restraints. But for a few moments he would just see how Lawliet was doing until he calmed down.  As he watched, he became concerned when he saw the boy on the phone and looking extremely upset.  He turned and walked out of his room quickly.

Lawliet stopped breathing, everything within him feeling like jelly as BB’s voice went through him.

“Lawliet? Are you there?” he heard, accompanied by a slight giggle.

“I…what do you want?” he finally managed to get out.

“I’m just checking to see how you are, I heard you finally left the hospital.  I wanted to make sure you were healing well.”

“I’m fine Beyond,” Lawliet told him trying to keep his voice level and steady, “ Not that you really care anyway.  Is there anything else because I really don’t have anything to say to you.”

“I imagined not, but I have a few things to say to you. I’ve been told that part of my recovery depends on my getting things off of my chest, letting go of certain emotions. So to begin with, I would like to say that I am sorry for Light’s injuries, I didn’t mean to hurt him, so I’m glad he’s healed.”  Lawliet said nothing, waiting to see where he was going with this.

“I also did not mean to cause you such grievous injuries either, obviously I was not myself.  That doesn’t mean that I’m not upset with you Lawliet; I still feel all of this was because of your putting your nose into what didn’t concern you.  Our relationship, which was never very good anyway, is irreparably damaged in my opinion; I see no way this can be repaired, can you?”

“I suppose not, but you’ve always hated me anyway, so this really amounts to nothing new,” Lawliet answered.

“I never hated you until now Lawliet,” Beyond told him, “But I never really liked you either, I simply tolerated you.  But right now, I do hate you because you are the cause of all of this.  You couldn’t leave well enough alone, you couldn’t leave Alexander alone.” L frowned.

“I was trying to help…”

“By putting him in your little group? Helping him do what I didn’t want him to do? You were meddling Lawliet, wanting him to look on you with favor, trying to take the one thing I had away from me.”  Lawliet shook his head against the phone.

“No…no Beyond I never thought that!  I admit that maybe I thought it was something I could do for him that you couldn’t, but I would never try to take him from you. Why would I, when I have Light?”

“Why? Because you like being above me, having what I don’t have, being better than I am.  You have your little project; your little “L” will be the best detective in the world one-day project.  Wammy has always doted on you from day one, breaks rules for you, creates an entire world and persona for you and even creates lackeys to back you up in case you get the sniffles. I decide to opt out at being one of your lackeys and you find a way to pull Alexander back in, just to spite me.”

“That isn’t true Beyond…” Lawliet protested quietly, not hearing the sudden knocking on his front door.

“But it’s okay because he’s with me now, and you won’t ever be able to get your hooks into him again.  So you see dear brother, it all started with you and you have to take as much responsibility for what happened as I do.  Just as I’m paying for what I’ve done, one day you’ll have to pay for what you did.” Lawliet hung his head, Beyond’s words suddenly making sense to him, filling him with guilt.

“You’re right, “ he said almost in a whisper, tears sliding down his face, “I am responsible for pushing you too far; I didn’t mean to Beyond, I really didn’t…”

“Lawliet! What’s wrong?” he looked up startled to see Wammy standing at the foot of his bed, who then moved quickly to take the phone, “Who is this?” he demanded.

“Ahhh Wammy coming to his rescue yet again,” Beyond murmured into his ear.

“Beyond? What is the meaning of this? What have you said to him?” Wammy asked in alarm as Lawliet slid down into the bed, turning his back to him.

“I’m merely doing my doctors’ bidding, expressing my feelings so they don’t fester and grow inside and make me violent again.  You have no idea how much better I feel.  Good-night Wammy.” Wammy heard the unnerving giggle and the click as the call was ended then turned to Lawliet.  He had come in to give him a piece of his mind after hearing what transpired outside of Light’s classroom, but now that was all but forgotten.  He reached down and placed his hand on Lawliet’s shoulder.

“Son, I don’t know what he said but…”

“He said this whole thing was my fault, and he was right, this was all my fault.  I pushed him into losing his mind and hurting us.  I’m sorry…” Wammy sighed and shook his head.

“Nothing you did warranted his behavior Lawliet, Beyond has always been walking a thin line of control and that isn’t your fault.  You can’t blame yourself for what happened, he’s simply trying to prey on your mind, don’t let him do that.”  Lawliet wiped at his eyes then turned around to face him.

“My first thought was to help A, he was practically distraught when he was talking to me about feeling useful, and I just wanted to help him.  I did feel that I had something over Beyond in that I could do something to make A happy that he couldn’t, but I wasn’t trying to come between them, I wasn’t trying to make A like me more than Beyond.  I never meant to hurt Beyond in anyway!”

“You don’t have to tell me that Lawliet, I know all of that.  But Beyond isn’t going to accept all the responsibility for what he’s done, I don’t think he can mentally handle that burden so of course he’s going to put some on your shoulders.  It wasn’t your fault what A did; and it was that act that pushed Beyond over the edge, not anything that you did.”

Lawliet listened and nodded his head, running a hand through his hair. “I guess not,” he admitted and sighed, “but I’m sure he’s going to try and make me pay somehow.”

“I wouldn’t worry about that,” Wammy said with a smile, “I’m sure it’s going to be quite a while before he leaves the hospital, and when he does this will all be behind him and probably forgotten.” Lawliet nodded again and took a deep breath.

“Thank you Wammy,” he said and began to lie down again, “I’m suddenly very tired.” He added.

“I can’t imagine why,” Wammy said crossing his arms, “It’s not as if you went downstairs to the classrooms and got attacked by an irate young woman.  I simply don’t understand.”   Lawliet cringed under the blankets, not wanting to look back at Wammy.

“I’m sorry,” he said quietly, “Light forgot his book, I thought he would need it.  I didn’t expect Misa…”

“I’m sure you didn’t. I trust you have learned your place is in this bed, or at most on the couch until you have healed sufficiently?”  Lawliet nodded again, still refusing to look at him.  Wammy sighed and gently touched his shoulder.

“Fine, then that is all I have to say about the matter.  Let me look at your bandages, I wish to make sure there’s no bleeding,” L nodded and Wammy pulled back the sheets to inspect his back.  When he was satisfied there had been no harm done he pulled the blankets back over Lawliet.  “I’ll postpone the meeting for this evening here; I’ll have the others meet with me in my apartment.  You get some rest and don’t worry about Beyond.  I will see you with dinner in a while.”  Lawliet nodded again, barely this time as he had begun to fall asleep.  Wammy left the room and went into the living room just as Light came flying through the door, relieved to see that Wammy was there.

“How is he, he didn’t open up any wounds did he?” he asked dropping everything he was carrying onto the couch.

“No, he appears to be fine, simply exhausted of course,” he answered, “He did receive a rather unsettling call from Beyond.”  Light stared at the older man in shock.

“Beyond? Why?” he asked heading for the bedroom.

“As a pretense of clearing his mind of volatile emotions, when in reality it was to share the blame of what happened with Lawliet, and to suggest that he also had to pay for his part in the fiasco.  It upset him, but I told him it was only Beyond trying to unsettle his mind, there was no truth in what he said and that seemed to calm him somewhat.  He is sleeping now.”

Light turned to see that Lawliet was indeed sleeping peacefully, sighed and closed the door to the room.

“I imagine you know what happened between he and Misa earlier?” he asked coming back into the living room.

“Yes, and there will have to be something done about that, but I’ll let Roger set whatever punishment she is to get; I may not be particularly fair about it.” He answered with a smile and Light smiled back.

“I understand, believe me,” he looked back at the bedroom door and turned back to Wammy.  “I never got a chance to thank you for allowing me to stay after my father turned on me, you didn’t have to do that.”  

“There is no need to thank me, Light. You are so very close to graduating, you have already been through so much, and Lawliet…well Lawliet would have never accepted anything else.  I know what you mean to him, he would have left with you,” he smiled again, “And I couldn’t have that could I?”  Light chuckled and shook his head.

“No, I guess not,” he answered, “You really think of Lawliet as your own son don’t you?” he asked and Wammy turned his gaze back on the closed door and nodded.

“I have from the moment he first arrived here at age 10,” he said with a smile, “All the children here are brilliant but there was something about Lawliet that made him so very different from the others, and his need for acceptance while on the outside he acted as if he couldn’t care less.  As I’m sure you know, that exterior hides a fragile interior and that he believes all he has is his intelligence.  I have tried to make him realize there is more to him than that, something I believe your relationship with him has helped a great deal,” he sighed and then turned back to Light, “I must go and make sure I have all the files ready for this evening.  You are all ready to start working your own cases and I have several new ones available to you, so I will see you later.”  Light nodded and walked him to the door. “Although I’m sure he’s learned his lesson, make sure he stays where he is for the rest of the evening.”

“Don’t worry about that, I’ll make sure,” Light promised before closing the door behind him.    He was about to go into the kitchen and make something when there was a knock on the door.  He turned back and opened it and found Near on the other side holding a small bag.

“I heard Lawliet was back and I just wanted to see how he was,” the young Albino told him, “Is he okay?”  Light nodded.

“He is,” he answered, “In spite of his being attacked by Misa earlier.”

“Oh then that did happen,” Near said, “I heard something about that as well but it didn’t seem to make much sense to me, even for Misa.”  Light laughed and shook his head.

“Yea, well unfortunately it is the type of thing she‘s capable of,” he gestured toward the bedroom door, “He’s sleeping right now otherwise I’m sure he’d be glad to see you. Maybe by tonight’s meeting he’ll be awake and you can visit then.”  Near nodded.

“Oh I almost forgot, here’s a kind of welcome home gift, jelly beans. I know he likes them a lot and he probably hasn’t had any for a while.” He said offering the bag.  Light took the bag with a smile and nodded.

“He’s going to love this, thanks Near,” he said, “See you later.”  Near smiled and nodded and turned to leave as Light closed the door.  He walked into the bedroom and placed the bag of jellybeans on the side table by the bed.  He set the alarm on his watch for two hours later, kicked off his shoes, climbed into the bed next to Lawliet wrapping a protective arm around him and snuggling against him.
Metamorphosis 23

Matt took another drag on his cigarette as he waited for A to finish his last class and meet him outside.  He had been staying pretty close to Alexander since he came home from the hospital, he didn’t want him to spend too much time alone.  Although he had been a lot stronger dealing with what happened than Matt had expected, the pressure of dealing with BB in his current state of mind was weighing heavily on him and he shouldered all the guilt for what had happened.

“Hey!” he looked up at the sound to see A coming through the doors and heading for him.  He dropped the cigarette and crushed it with his foot.

“It’s about time,” he said with a grin, “What the hell were you doing…kissing up to the teacher?”  A laughed and shook is head.

“No, I still had some make-up work to turn in,” he answered, “Where are we going?”

“Into town to this café Mello and I go to a lot.  I thought it would be easier to talk if we weren’t surrounded by people who are still being nosy.”  A nodded as they walked towards the gates.

“BB and I went into town a few times, but he bored easily. Doesn’t really get into quaint little towns,” he said with a smile, “But I always thought it was a nice place.”

“Then you’re gonna love this café,” Matt told him as they walked, “I take it you’ve been to see BB every day after classes?”  A nodded with a heavy sigh.

“He seems to be doing okay but…something’s still wrong,” he said, “He doesn’t treat me any differently, if anything he’s dependant on me more than he’s ever been before, but…” Matt nodded.

“I know.  I’ve only been a couple of times, and don’t take this wrong, but he kinda creeps me out.” A stopped and looked at Matt as if he were offended and going to argue but sighed then nodded.

“Yea, I know what you mean.  As if there’s something just under the surface waiting to explode.” They had reached the café and were sliding into an empty booth.  Matt waited until they had ordered coffee and a couple of slices  of cake before continuing.

“Here’s what I’m really concerned about,” he said stirring milk into his coffee, “The way he’s blaming the entire thing on Lawliet and the thinly veiled threats he’s making is disturbing.  He doesn’t even seem to care that he’s being monitored all the time, they hear what he’s saying and no matter how well he’s behaving, they know he’s not safe to let out yet.  He’s only making things worse for himself this way, and for you.”

“I know, I’ve heard him,” A said miserably, “But what am I supposed to do Matt?  I try to tell him that he’s wrong to blame it all on Lawliet, that it was me that went to him for help to do something worthwhile and he was only helping me, but he doesn’t want to hear it. It worries me that he wants to do something to really fuck up Lawliet still, or at least make him think that he wants to.   At this point, Lawliet will never have one day where he’s not worried about what his own brother is plotting against him,” he looked down at his hands, “And all of this because I was weak and stupid.”  Matt sighed and shook his head.

“No, if anything perhaps what you did was a catalyst, but you know as well as I do that Beyond was kind of walking a thin line before this happened. I have a feeling that if what you did hadn’t happened, it would have been something else.  It was gonna happen anyway A, I’m sure of that.”

He stopped when the waitress came back with what they had ordered, and let A drink some of his coffee and eat a little bit before he started again.

“The main reason I wanted to talk with you like this, was because Mello and I think you need to have a contingency plan.  You need to think about what you can do without BB right now.  Graduation is only a couple of months away, and you know as well as I do that he’s not going anywhere for a while.  You can’t sit around and twiddle your thumbs waiting for him to get out no matter how much you love him.”  A shook his head almost violently.

“No…I can’t leave him, Matt.  He needs me to be there every day, I want to be there every day, I’m all he has.  His dad is disgusted with him after what he did, more concerned that if word gets out that his soon attempted to murder his own brother it will be bad for his business and may lose him customers. And his mother, he doesn’t have any kind of relationship with her anyway.  She did come to visit him after seeing Lawliet but the only thing she did when she saw BB was ask him over and over again how he could do such a thing. He finally flipped and screamed at her to get out and it took hours to calm him down,” he ran a hand through his hair, “I’m all he has Matt and I’m not leaving him.”

“No one said anything about leaving him,” Matt reassured him, “I would never leave Mello if the situation was reversed.  But what I am saying is that you can’t just stay here and wait, you’ve got to continue with your plans.  Mello and I were thinking that maybe you could come with us. We’re staying around here, probably London because we love the big city, and it will keep us close to everything going on with “L”.  We could get a place together and work that way, and you’ll only be a half an hour away from the hospital.”

A listened in surprise; he hadn’t even thought about what he’d do after graduation, and was touched that Mello and Matt were concerned enough to invite him along.  “But what would I do, I can’t do anything with the project?”
“Not officially, no.  But there’s no reason why you couldn’t sort of work for us in a totally outside the box capacity.  I’m not even sure exactly what we’ll be doing immediately anyway until this gets off the ground officially.  We might just be working freelance until L needs us, and we’d need someone who’s good at paperwork and computers, we hate that shit, man.  Near’s going to be hanging around here working with Light and Lawliet so we need you.  What do you say?”

A rolled everything Matt had just said over and over in his mind.  Of course it made sense; he just hadn’t thought about what he would do if BB wasn’t out by the end of the year; he had simply hoped that he would be out, but that didn’t seem like a reasonable possibility.  He had nowhere else to go, and although he was sure Mr. Wammy would let him stay at the school, he was sure he didn’t want that, and what would he do while there even if he did?  He looked up at Matt and nodded with a smile.

“I think I’d like that very much, thank you,” he answered and then sighed playing with his fork, “I just hope BB understands.”  He looked back up at Matt,  “You know that as soon as he gets out, I’ll be going wherever he decides to go, right?”  Matt nodded.

“Of course, this is only until he’s out and able to continue with your original plans.”  Matt managed to keep the doubt out of his voice about whether that would happen any time soon, “And I’m sure he’ll be okay with it. He knows Mello and I are keeping up with you, he’ll be glad to know you’re not being left on your own and you know he trusts Mello.”

“Yea, but I’m not really sure exactly what he thinks right now,” A answered, “I think I’ll leave it alone until graduation, or if he asks.”  

“Yea, that might be best,” Matt agreed, “So…what do you think of this place?” he asked wanting to lighten the mood a bit.

“Actually, this is really nice,” A said looking around, “I bet BB would even like it,” he looked back at Matt, “I still love him, no matter what’s going on with him.”

“I get it, like I said, if it were Mello in there, I’d be just like you, so don’t worry about it. Now, if you don’t finish that cake I’m going to pull a Lawliet and snatch it off your plate.”  A laughed and held up his fork defensively.

“Try it and you‘ll lose a hand,” he warned and Matt laughed with him, relieved it had gone as well as it did.  He couldn’t wait to tell Mello when they got back.

Lawliet finished reading the synopsis of the cases that were waiting for his decision as to whether or not he wanted to work on them and put the folders on the bedside table; and noticed that Light had left his Criminal Psychology book there earlier.  He looked at the clock on his laptop and realized it almost time for that class.  Knowing Light needed that book for class, he slid out of bed and immediately pulled on some clothes.  Light had been late leaving for classes that morning because he was trying to make sure Lawliet was all set so the least he could do was meet Light at his class and give him his book.  He was still moving slower than he liked but at least he was dressed.  He grabbed Light’s book and headed out of the door, hoping this was one of the few times that Wammy wasn’t looking.

He made his way down to the academic floors and was only a few doors away from the Psychology room when he heard a high-pitched scream of his name from behind him.  He sighed heavily knowing exactly who it was and turned slowly to face her.  

“Well, well if it isn’t the jerk who took my fiancé away from me,” Misa accused as she walked towards him, “I don’t know how you did it, what spell you put on Light, but you managed to do it.”

“Misa, I didn’t do anything to Light, he has his own mind,” Lawliet told her, “Now if you excuse me I have to bring Light his book.” He turned slowly and began to move away, but Misa wasn’t done.

“Did he give you my ring that I gave back to him?” her friends around her laughed and that seemed to strengthen her resolve to keep taunting him, “If you’d just died he would have come back to me and realized he loved me, why didn’t you just die?”  He stopped again and turned back to her, unhappy that she was drawing a crowd.

“I’m sorry you were hurt Misa, I really am, but making a scene and wishing I were dead isn’t going to change anything. You’re ruining your chances of remain friends with Light.” He turned away again and saw Light at the other end of the hall heading towards his class, digging in his backpack probably for the book he didn’t have.  He tried to move a little quicker to get to him and give him his book before she started again but couldn’t move fast enough. She grabbed his arm, turning him to face her.

“Well since you’re probably going to be marrying him instead of me, let me give you an early wedding present!” she yelled before reaching out and slapping Lawliet as hard as she could.  Had he been well it wouldn’t have bothered him half as much but he was still weak and not completely steady on his feet.  The hit threw him off balance and he fell against the wall, crying out in pain and sliding down the wall to the floor.

Light heard Misa yelling and looked up in time to see her slap Lawliet and see him fly backwards against the wall.   “NO!” He yelled running down the hall to get to Lawliet, knocking students out of the way as he ran.

Misa was shocked at when Lawliet fell.  She had fully expected him just maybe stumble back a bit, not to slam into the wall and fall to the ground.  When she saw Light running towards him she panicked and tried to help Lawliet from the floor.

“Get your fucking hands off of him you‘ve done enough!” Light hissed pushing her away from Lawliet as he reached down to wrap his arm around him and help him up.

“I’m sorry Light, I didn’t mean to…” she immediately shut up when Light’s eyes rolled up to look at her, the amount of hate in them so strong that she backed up. He pulled Lawliet to his feet, checking to see if he was okay.

“Lawliet…are you hurt? Did you rupture any stitches?”  Lawliet shook his head, his face colored in embarrassment.

“No, only my pride has been hurt.  I can’t believe that little slap did that to me,” he looked around, “And I had to have an audience for my humiliation.”   Light looked around to see a crowd of students standing around and staring.

“Get going,” he nearly growled at them, “You’ve got better things to do,” he turned to Misa who was still standing amongst her friends, “And you better get out of my sight right now.” Misa moved nearly at a run towards her next class, as some of her friends snickered as they walked past them.

“Come on, let me get you back to bed,” Light said helping Lawliet walk, “What the hell were you doing down here anyway?”

“You forgot your book,” Lawliet said looking down at the floor, the book had fallen from his hands, wide open and on its pages. Light sighed and shook his head.

“You fool, you know you ‘re not supposed to be moving around like this. I can’t believe you got out of the room without Wammy seeing you and he’s going to be pissed about this.” Light answered reaching down for the book.

“He was probably in his office, usually is during academic hours,” Lawliet said trying not to grimace, “I’m sorry I thought you needed it and especially since you left it because you were fussing with me this morning.”  

“I appreciate it Lawliet but honestly, it wouldn’t have been a big deal, I have my notes.  Think how I’d feel if you’d been really hurt just because I forgot a book.”  Lawliet shrugged as they slowly made it up the stairs.

“Now I’ve just embarrassed you, I’m sorry,” he said.

“You didn’t embarrass me, that stupid bitch did,” Light nearly spat and Lawliet chuckled.

“Such language Mr. Yagami, I’ve never heard you say such things.”

“This is just the beginning, you have no idea what you’re going to hear if you do anything like this again.” Light warned him as they made it back into their apartment.  Lawliet chuckled again and allowed Light to put him back to bed without argument.  After checking his bandages to make sure he wasn’t bleeding Light leaned over and kissed him.

“Now can you behave yourself until I finish my classes or do I have to get Wammy?” he asked and Lawliet smiled at him.

“I promise I won’t move from here until you get back,” he said and Light nodded satisfied.  He kissed him again before going to the door.

“Don’t forget you promised!” Light called before he went out making Lawliet laugh.  He settled down in the bed feeling sore and exhausted.  He reached up to touch the spot on his face that Misa had slapped, still feeling the heat from it when he did.

“I owe you one Miss Amane,” he said and was slightly startled when his phone went off. He reached to his bedside table where it was lying and picked it up, expecting it to be Wammy about to yell at him.

“Hello?” he sad as contritely as he could, but he wasn’t prepared for what he heard in answer.

“Oh what’s wrong brother dear, not feeling well?”
L put his phone away and tried to relax as best he could not being in his own plane.  He had wanted to tell Light he was on his way home, but maybe it was better this way, to surprise him instead.  He nodded with a smile; yes this would be better, he couldn’t wait to see Light’s face when he walked in.  

He sighed and tried to stop fidgeting but he couldn’t help it, no matter how comfortable the first class accommodations were, he didn’t like being there and certainly not alone.  The first and only time he’d been in a commercial plane was when he was with Light on their way to Florida and Light had taken perfect care of him with his pockets filled with lollipops and other goodies that kept him occupied, not to mention Light himself being there.   He sighed again drawing his knees up against his chest, then chuckled and remembered how Light would push his knees back down telling him he couldn’t sit in the plane like.  He reached into his own pocket and pulled out the little bag of sweets Near had given him right before he jumped into the taxi.  He smiled as he reached in and pulled out a handful of jellybeans, popping them into his mouth.  All he wanted to do right now was to be with Light and to be sure he hadn’t pushed him too far.  

Light studied the video carefully and could certainly understand why Takashi disliked the mother so much.  She was constantly in the way of the shoot, fussing with the embarrassed young man, complaining about everything, shoving people out of her way, trying to run the entire show.  The young man, while attractive, was completely clueless and appeared as if he’d rather be anywhere else, but obviously had no choice as his mother pushed and prodded and demanded.  When the video was over Hayami removed the disk and handed it to Light.

“As you can see  Eiko Yoshido was a horrific shrew who was completely convinced that her son. Shumei, was the next best thing to God and we were all deranged incompetents who obviously didn’t know our jobs well enough in order to make him the next hot item,” Hayami said and shook his head with a laugh, “He wouldn’t be hot if his ass were  on fire.  Obviously he turned them down, and the mother was far from happy about it.”

“Why do you suspect them in being involved in Makota Ishinu’s death?  Were they violent? Did they threaten him?” Light asked as he got up from the desk he’d been sitting on and pulled out his note book.

“Oh she threatened that we would never work again, she ‘d get us back, that we’d be begging to represent him when he became famous…the litany of threats and vulgar, depraved spewing went on until we had security throw them both out. “ Light nodded and began writing the information.

“Did she contact you or Mr. Ishinu after this? Threatening phone calls, anything of that nature?” he asked.   Hayami nodded and indicated the file he had handed Light earlier.

“Every call I got is noted and the conversations transcribed,” he told him, “I don’t know about Makota, I don’t think he took it as seriously as I thought he should so he probably just hung up on her.  She visited his office a few times as well, luckily she didn’t know where I had moved to or I’m sure she would have fouled up my office as well.”

“Do you know when the last time was she visted Mr. Ishinu?” Light asked closing his notebook.  Hayami shrugged as he stood up from his desk.

“I don’t really know, he stopped mentioning her after a while and I did ask several times as I was planning a lawsuit if she continued with the phone calls.  However, suddenly she just stopped, calling.  I imagined she just ran out of steam or found some desperate agency to represent her hell spawn.”

Light chuckled as he headed towards the door.  ‘I see.  Thank you for all the information Mr. Hayami, I will get on this as soon as I get back to my desk.”  Hayami stood and moved from his desk following Light to the door.

“It was my pleasure.  Please let me know what happens when you interrogate her, and make sure you ‘re wearing your armor.”  He moved closer to Light, as if trying to whisper something to the detective, making Light pull back slightly.  “I am always available to you whenever you need anything from me.” Hayami added quietly with a smile.

“Thank you Mr. Hayami,” Light answered pulling the door open, “I’ll be sure to let my partner know that as well in case he has any questions.”  He then moved out of the door, closing it behind him quickly.  He released a deep breath and then shook his head; Hayami was more of a character than he suspected, definitely interesting, pulled no punches and obviously had figured out more about him than he wanted him to which was slightly disturbing but also intriguing.  He reached for his phone as he headed to the elevator, he’d call Matsuda and let him know what he’d learned and tell him he was on his way…and listen to him bitch about his seeing Hayami again without him.  He sighed and jumped into the next taxi that he could flag down.

Matsuda was waiting for him the moment he walked into the office, his arms crossed, a look of aggravation on his face.  Light sighed as he walked up to him.  

“Don’t start, I didn’t’ have time to call you and wait for you to show up, I just wanted to get the information from him and get out.” He held out the folder to his partner who looked down at it, sighed and took it from him.

“What was so important that he called you to pick up?” Matsuda asked flipping through the file.

“He had the information on that mother and son who he had suspicions about.  Had a video he wanted me to watch…”

“Yea, I bet he did,” Matsuda chuckled under his breath, then stopped when he realized Light was staring at him. “Sorry…I..”  Light cut him off by taking the folder back.

“Do you think you could contact the mother and have them both come here for questioning?” he asked tersely as he pulled out the appropriate papers and handed them back to Matsuda, ‘I want to write up my report on the information I got from Hayami.”

He moved away to his desk and sat down, reaching up to massage his forehead with his fingers for a few moments, closing his eyes.  If you were here L, I could call you and we could laugh over lunch about Hayami, but you’re not, are you ? No, you had to go on your little soul searching jaunt, in spite of what it meant to me… His eyes shot open as the thought escaped the side of him he was trying to suppress; the side that resented L’s being gone.  That side not only resented L for being gone, it was also angry with him, hating him for making a decision like this without bothering to discuss it; hating him for even thinking he had to leave him in the first place to make a decision about his future, about their future.  That side was also angry that he was in such need of being with L that he was feeling this way.   What happened to the forever self-sufficient Light Yagami who never needed or wanted anyone? He should be able to just put what L was dealing with aside and just continue on with his life without a second thought; he didn’t need this.  Obviously L could deal without him, he should do the same.

He closed his eyes again and shook his head. He didn’t hate L, he could never hate L; just what he was doing, and he hated the fact that being without L made him feel like this; he almost felt weak with the uncertainty of what was going to happen when it was finally over.   He jumped when he felt a hand on his shoulder bringing him back from his dark thoughts.

“Light…they’re coming in at 2:00,” Matsuda said quietly then put a hot cup of coffee down in front of him, “You look like you could use this.”  Light looked at the coffee and nodded, afraid to speak right away until he was sure his voice wouldn’t betray his state of mind.

“Thank you,” he finally managed and lifted the steaming drink to his lips.  After a couple of sips he looked up at his partner. “2:00 is good; it will be after lunch and give us time go over information and figure out what exactly it is I want to ask them.  Have we heard anything about the autopsy?”   Matsuda didn’t answer immediately as he tried to decide exactly what he should do, it was obvious Light wasn’t doing well at all.

“Would you like to go into the meeting room and talk away from everyone else?” he asked carefully.  Light sighed and shook his head.

“Talking isn’t going to do any good; it won’t make Ryuzaki come to his senses and come back home any sooner,” he sipped on the coffee again and then smiled up at Matsuda, “Besides, we have a case to solve, I don’t have time to sit around and talk about how ridiculous Ryuzaki is being or feel sorry for myself.  Now…what about the autopsy?”   Matsuda nodded and went back to his desk to get the folder, still wishing he could Light to open up again before he found someone else to talk to.

“It appears there was sooo much bad stuff in Ishinu’s system it was hard to separate it all,” he chuckled as he went through the papers. “Toxicology says there was evidence of marijuana, cocaine and a lot of alcohol.  He wouldn’t have been able to hold a razor steady against his wrists to cut them with all of this in his system, Light.”  Light took the paperwork from him and quickly read over it before looking up at Matsuda again.

“He was definitely murdered, then.  Someone cut his wrists for him to make it look like he’d gotten too drugged up and did it himself.  He was so out of it he couldn’t even defend himself from whoever did it,” he shook his head, “Which means it could have been anyone, it’s not as if they had to over power him to subdue him.”  

“Could have been the mother as well as the kid, no strength was needed,” Matsuda agreed, “I can’t wait to get them in here and hear what they have to say; although the mother wasn’t particularly heartbroken about his death.”  Light looked up at him.

“Really? What did she say?”

“That she heard the son of a bitch was dead and it was no loss to anyone.”  Light laughed and shook his head.

“No, I guess she wasn’t heartbroken,” he finished his coffee and stood up, “I’m getting more coffee and then we have to decide on our next plan of action.”  Matsuda agreed.

“Grab me one too?” he asked and then quietly, “Unless you want me to come with you and maybe take a break and talk…”

“I just need coffee Matsuda, I’ll be right back,” Light answered, flashing his trademark smile of complete confidence on his face.  Matsuda chuckled and nodded.

“Okay,” he said and watched Light walk away.  He sat down and immediately pulled out his phone, intent on calling L again and telling him he didn’t think Light was doing well at all.  Then he stopped and put the phone on his desk; maybe he’d better just keep an eye on Light, he could make things worse by calling L right now.   He also had to keep an eye on Hayami; he just didn’t trust him.

When Light came back with the coffees, they worked together until lunchtime, going over the crime scene pictures and all the information they had so far.  Light showed Matsuda the video and went over Hayami’s phone call transcriptions.  The mother looked so guilty it was laughable, but at the same time it seemed almost a bit too obvious.

Exactly at 2:00 P.M., the relative quiet of the squad room was shattered as a boisterous woman and a young man came through the doors.  Although petite and slim, her voice was just the opposite, as she loudly demanded she be taken to see Detective Yagami or Detective Matsuda immediately.  Light and Matsuda looked at each other and tried not to laugh as her voice echoed through the room.

“Oh, this is going to so much fun,” Light remarked standing up and heading to the barking woman.  He bowed slightly when he faced her.
“Good morning, I’m Detective Yagami,” he said, “Then you must be Yoshida Eiko?” The woman snorted before answering.

“Of course, and this my son Shumei,” she said gesturing towards the young man.  Light nodded and bowed to the young man who smiled slightly before bowing back.

“If you would come this way and have a seat we can get started,” Light gestured towards where Matsuda was standing and led them there.  Matsuda bowed as they came towards him, and pulled out a couple of chairs for them to sit on.

“Can I get you something, tea or coffee?” he offered.

“Tea for both of us, and cream, no sugar,”  Matsuda nodded and left to fulfill her wishes as Light opened his folder of information.  He removed a picture of Makota Ishinu and slid it towards her.

“Just to be clear, this is the man we found dead in his apartment; can you identity him?” he asked.  The woman snorted again.

“A fool named Makota Ishinu,” she said sliding the picture back to him, “And now he’s a dead fool,” she scrutinized Light carefully before speaking again, “Are you sure you’re old enough to handle this?  Perhaps I should see your lead detective…”

“Detective Matsuda is the lead detective,” Light answered, “And I assure you I have enough experience to handle this case,” he brought her attention back to the picture. “I understand you two didn’t see eye to eye business wise,” he began and was surprised when she broke into loud laughter.

“That’s a way to put it,” she said then looked at her son, “He couldn’t see the star potential in my son and wouldn’t sign him; but we don’t need him do we, Shumei?” she asked the uncomfortable looking young man.  He shook his head and looked down at the floor.

Light immediately felt badly for the young man; it was obvious he was completely under his mother’s thumb and probably not allowed to think or speak for himself.  He looked up as he saw Matsuda returning with the tray of teas.  He let him pass them to their guests before continuing.

“I take it you also know this man,” Light stated sliding a picture of Hayami towards her.  

“Hmph,” she said quickly pushing it back, “That one’s the other one’s partner who was just as much of a fool, if not more,” she leaned forward, lowering her voice.  “Did you know they were know…THAT type?  I mean, I don’t know for sure of course, but everyone told me they were…you know…THAT way.  So maybe in a way it’s a good thing they didn’t sign my boy, who knows, they might have made know…THAT way.”  Matsuda raised an eyebrow at Light who winked back at him.

“THAT way Mrs. Eiko? I’m sure I don’t know what you mean.  Is it pertinent to the case? Is it something I should know?”  The woman hmphed again sitting back in her chair and crossed her arms.

“Never mind, if you don’t understand there’s no point in going on about it,” she said, “Now why are we here? I was told we had to answer questions about that idiot’s death.  I only came because I wanted to make sure you realized we had nothing to do with it, even though we were thrilled to hear about it.”  Light smiled sweetly and sat back in his own chair.

“It’s quite obvious from what I’ve read about your relationship with both Mr. Ishinu and Hayami that you felt they didn’t give your son the attention his…talent deserved, and that you harassed them both with phone calls and irate messages.”

“I was trying to make them understand what a mistake they ‘d made,” she told him, “Didn’t I try to tell them Shumei?” she asked the boy who merely nodded.

“Shumei,” Light said softly to the obviously uncomfortable young man, “Did you have any conversations with Mr. Ishinu that your mother wasn’t in on?” he asked.  The boy for a moment flicked his eyes at Light and the detective found a quick flash of something odd in them, was that fear? The eyes very quickly shifted to his mother who looked indignant.

“There was no way in this world I would leave my son alone with either one of them,” she stated emphatically, “Being that I heard they were…you know…THAT way,” she emphasized again.  Matsuda covered his mouth with his hand trying not to laugh as Light tried to look completely sympathetic and horrified at the same time.

“Where were you on the night Mr. Ishinu was killed?” Matsuda asked her, “And if you could give us the names of others who may have seen you so we can check your alibi?”

“How dare you?!” she hissed, “Did I not make it clear that we had nothing to do with his death and yet you dare suggest that I killed him?”  Shumei tentatively put a hand on his mother’s shoulder, “It’s his job Mother, it isn’t personal.” He said quietly and she shrugged away from his hand.

“It’s disgusting that’s what it is,” she bellowed, “A talent less pervert like that finally gets what he deserves and they accuse an honest, normal, hard-working like myself of it? And a woman on top of all this, a mother who only worries about her son and wants the world to know what a wonder he is!” she sniffed as if she were about to cry and Matsuda handed her a box of tissues while Light fought to keep his face straight.

“We’re not accusing you of anything,” Light said gently, “We just have to be able to show we’ve done our job and know where everyone and anyone who is connected to the victim was on the night of his death,” he leaned closer to her, his eyes sincere and his voice soft, “Anyone can tell that you are simply a mother trying to take care of your son the best way possible and unfortunately you got caught up in this mess.  Believe me, this is the fastest way to erase your name from our list so you can get back to doing just that, so now, if you would be kind enough to answer Detective Matsuda’s question.”  The woman looked up into Light’s eyes, his charm completely winning her over as Matsuda tried not to roll his eyes.

“Of course Detective Yagami, I can tell you understand how difficult it can be for someone like me, I appreciate your understanding,” she answered then turned to Matsuda, “To answer your question, my son and I were at a gathering of potential managers and talent; a cocktail party to introduce yourself to several at once.  I can tell you exactly whom I talked to because I introduced my son to several managers and I’m sure they will remember us. It began at 8:00 and lasted until midnight, at which time I went home and to bed.”

“Oh I’m sure they will,” Matsuda answered, “Both of you were there the entire time?” he asked.

“Yes, well I was,” she corrected, “It was getting past my son’s bedtime so I sent him home in a car so he could rest,” she turned and ran her fingers through his hair, “He needs his rest.”

The boy shifted away from her fingers looking even more uncomfortable.  Light gazed at him for a moment; a slight good-looking young man with long dark hair.  He felt sorry for him, but wondered if there was a side of him they weren’t seeing.

“Shumei, that night, you went directly home from the party, no stops anywhere?”  Before the boy could answer his mother turned on Light.

“Of course he didn’t, didn’t I just tell you I sent him home? He would never disobey like that when he knows I only have his best interest at heart,” she turned to the boy, “Would you Shumei?” The boy sighed and then shook his head.

“No, of course not Mother,” he said in nearly a whisper, “I went directly home and to bed, Detective.”

The two detectives exchanged looks and then Matsuda sat back in his chair before speaking again.

“Alright, if you would write down the names of the others you remember being there at the party, I think we will have enough information for right now. If we need anything else, one of us will give you a call, thank you.” He said sliding paper and a pen towards the woman who snatched them both and began writing.  When she was done, Matsuda stood up, Light doing the same.

“If you think of anything that might help in our investigation, please don’t hesitate to call,” Light told her handing her one of his cards.  She took the card as she stood up and looked at Light.

“I doubt there’s anything else, but if I think of something I’ll call,” she said then looked at her son, “Let’s go Shumei, we’ve wasted enough time here.”   The two detectives bowed and the boy nodded and followed her out of the room.  

They waited until she was out of the room and both Light and Matsuda looked at each other and broke into laughter.

“Light, I always knew you were a smooth talker but you could have talked her out of her clothes!” Matsuda said and then suddenly blushed; “If…if you were inclined to I mean…” he added which only made Light laugh harder.

“Ah but I’m THAT type so that’s not an option,” he said and stretched, “Alright let’s get this on paper so we can turn it into the Deputy Director and then it should be time to go home.”

“I don’t know about you, but I still think they had something do with the victim’s death, somehow,” Matsuda said firing up the computer, “And that boy, I think he probably has enough anger at his mother pent up to unleash a lot of hurt on anyone.”  Light nodded his agreement.

“Yea, I have the same feeling but I’m not sure which one is more likely,” he sighed, “We’ll have to go over everything again, check out the alibi’s and go from there.  I should have taken DNA samples, damn it.” He suddenly thought.

“We’ll get it later, let’s just get this paperwork done,” Matsuda soothed, “And then you can come over for dinner.” Light shook his head.

“No, I need to go home, I have to do some thinking and I have to do it alone.  I’m expecting to hear from Ryuzaki as well, but thank you anyway.”  Matsuda sighed in defeat.  “Okay, how about tomorrow night?” he suggested and Light chuckled.

“Okay, maybe come let’s get this done!” he insisted and Matsuda agreed.

When the report was ready and printed out, Light signed it then slid it over to Matsuda to do the same.

“I’ll take it over, you go ahead and go home, I’m sure Suki is waiting with the car,” he said standing up.

“Yea, you ‘re probably right,” Matsuda answer as he finished signing, “I think she said something about shopping after work, lucky me.”  Light laughed and picked up the form.

“Maybe it will be for something naughty you both can enjoy later,” he said with a wink and then laughed again as Matsuda’s face colored near crimson.

“Light!  You…” Light continued to laugh as he sprinted out of the office and headed to his father’s office.  

“Is he in?” he asked the secretary as he walked in.

“Yes Detective, I’ll buzz him…”

“No, don’t bother.  There’s got to be some perks to being related, I get to just walk in,” he grinned and went to the door, knocking quickly and then going in.

“Hey, alright if I deliver this to you?” he asked as his father looked up.

“What is it?” Soichiro asked as he walked in.  Light explained what had happened on the case before handing his father the papers.

“So here’s the report on everything we’ve discovered and the questioning of the mother and son.”  Soichiro nodded and quickly skimmed the report.

“I’ll read this in depth later, good work so far Detective but don’t get lazy,” he said then smiled.  “So when are you and Ryuzaki coming to visit, your mother is asking.”   Light sighed and shrugged.

“I…don’t know when, Ryuzaki’s out of town right now and I’m not sure when he’ll be back,” he answered.

“Ah, it must be a tough case then to make him go on site,” Soichiro said, “Well, you know if you get tired of being alone you can stop by.” He offered and Light nodded.

“Yea, thanks, Dad,” he looked at his watch, “I’m a little tired, I think I’m going to go home and turn in early.” He said and Soichiro smiled then went back to his paperwork.

“Alright Detective, have a good night,” he said and Light turned and left the office.  

As he got into the elevator his phone rang; he picked it up without looking and answered it after one ring.

“It’s about time you called back,” he began and then was confused when he heard laughter.

“Dear me Detective have I called at an inopportune time?” Hayami’s asked.

“No…I thought you were someone else, excuse me,” Light answered, “What can I do for you Mr. Hayami?”

“Well, first I would like it very much if you would address me by my name, Takashi, and secondly I was wondering if you had been able to reach Yoshida Eiko and if so, how did it go?”  Light chuckled into the phone.

“Yes, we have talked to her and I really can’t go into detail about it, it’s an ongoing case,” he answered.

“Well, what about the autopsy? Was my hunch correct?”

“Actually your hunch was right on the money,” Light answered, “Your ex-partner was murdered.”   There was silence on the line for a few moments before Hayami spoke again.

“Would you allow me to thank you for taking me seriously about this? Perhaps I could take you to dinner?” he offered.

“That’s not necessary Mr. Hayami,” Light said, “It was my job to listen…”

“Perhaps, but I believe the detective who had the case before you was simply giving me lip service and was quite happy to be able to pass me off to you.  You actually listened and I am most grateful.  Besides, I’m parked outside of your building, you wouldn’t want me to have wasted my time would you?”  Light chuckled as he walked out of the elevator and out of the doors, seeing Hayami’s car on the corner. Why shouldn’t he go out to dinner with him, it would definitely be stimulating conversation and it was better than being alone.

“Fine, dinner it is,” he answered and closed the call walking towards the car.

L pulled his phone when it rang, and smiled when he saw it was Watari’s number.  Probably checking on his estimated time of arrival; they were running a little later than expected.

“We had a little difficulty with turbulence,” he told him, “I will be landing in about two hours.”

“Excellent, I’ll be waiting,” his father figure told him, “I’m quite glad you’ve decided to come back.  May I ask what exactly happened to make you change your mind?
“My successors surpassed me, “ he answered, “Explained to me the errors of my ways.”  He heard Watari chuckle in the phone.

“Oh my that must have been a sight to see and hear, I am so very sorry I missed you being put in your place by your successors.  I’m surprised you allowed them to do such a thing.”

“Yes…well… it was quite clear I didn’t have any choice than to listen,” L told him, “And it turns out it was the right thing to do.  Watari…do you think I’ve done irreparable damage?”

“As far as whether or not you‘ve done serious damage to your relationship, that’s something you ‘re going to have to find out for yourself.  He has kept very much to himself, he has said nothing to me about the situation, even when he‘s here working, he doesn’t mention it at all.”

“I see,” L said quietly, his thumb rubbing his bottom lip, “Remember, if you see him please don’t tell him I’m coming home, I wish to surprise him.”

“I understand, and I will be waiting at the airport.”

“Thank you,” L answered and closed the call.  His thumb continued to worry on his bottom lip; what if he was too late?  What if this really damaged their relationship? He’d have no one to blame but himself and he would do whatever he had to in order to repair it…if he could.

Light didn’t appreciate how badly he had been feeling until laughing with Takashi made him feel so much better.  The agent was telling him stories of some of his best clients over dinner as only he could, and Light could barely eat from laughing so often.  He wasn’t sure if it were the stories themselves or whether the wine with dinner had helped them along.  Either way, he was enjoying himself for the first time in days.

“I can understand why you stay in this business,” he said finally, “There’s never a dull moment is there?”  

“I could say the same about your business,” Takashi said, “It doesn’t appear your chosen profession is very boring either.”  Light shrugged.

“It depends,” he answered, “There are weeks where all that happens is paperwork and chasing leads on old cases that pan out to nothing.  Then when something does happen…sometimes it’s just so heinous you wish you just had paperwork again.  But I enjoy the work involved, the sifting through clues to try to make sense out of them.  That’s what I find exciting, trying to put the pieces of the puzzle together.”

“I rather suspected that,” Takashi mused, “That’s one of the reasons I felt your threat of pulling out of the case earlier was simply posturing.  I imagine the ugliness of murder is what you like least.”  Light shook his head.

“I’ve come to grips with the idea of death and murder; it’s unfortunately a part of the brutality of this world.  What I dislike is when they get away with it,” Light’s eyes began to narrow as he spoke, intriguing Takashi with their intensity.  “When we work so very hard to bring them in, and a technicality lets them go free; when you know they ‘re the one, and you can see them laughing at you as they walk out.  That’s what I hate; that shouldn’t be possible, the ones that make this world rotten should be punished, they shouldn’t be able to simply walk away, there should be a way to prevent that from happening…”

“Well, well, well…there’s that dangerous side of you peeking out again,” Takashi said with a smile, “It is quite an exciting side of you.”   Light blinked at Takashi’s words and reigned himself in.

“I’m sorry that’s just…it’s a sore point with me, Ryuzaki usually…” he stopped again.

“Ah, Ryuzaki again,” Takashi said, “You’ve mentioned that name quite often tonight; he means everything to you doesn’t he?”

“I’m sorry, I didn’t realize,” Light began.

“It doesn’t matter, it gives me an insight into what your relationship with this Ryuzaki is, and knowledge is always good.”

“Thank you for dinner and conversation, I’ve enjoyed it,” Light said changing the subject, “But I should be getting home, I still have a lot of work to do tomorrow on your case.”  Takashi nodded and gestured for the waiter.

“Fine, I’ll take you home,” he said and Light nodded, still slightly embarrassed by his remarks, and slightly down again after realizing he had mentioned L so often.  

When they arrived at his building he thanked Takashi again for the evening and opened the car door.

“How rude of you to not invite me in for a night cap,” Takashi said with a grin, “I’m certain it was just an oversight, however.”  

“I don’t know…” Light began.   Takashi continued to smile as he leaned towards Light.

“I promise I don’t bite…unless you want me to.  It would be the hospitable thing to do.”  Light chuckled and then sighed with a smile.

“Alright, you park and come on up to the penthouse floor.  I’ll meet you there, but only one drink, I do need to get to bed.”

“The penthouse, that is definitely promising,” Takashi said and put the car into gear, “I’ll be there in just a few minutes.”   He took off towards the garage as Light headed into the building.

He had barely made it into his apartment, dropping the keys into the holder by the door when the buzzer from the elevator went off.  He expected to hear Watari buzz him to ask him if he were expecting anyone and when that didn’t happen he went to the intercom.

“Watari? Are you there?” he asked and waited for an answer.  “He must be out on an errand,” he said to himself then went to the panel that held the screen so he could make sure it was Takashi in the elevator.  Once he saw it was him, he released the lock on the elevator door, which allowed it to open and let him through.  He went to the apartment door and opened it to welcome the agent in.

“My that was exciting,” he said walking in, “I felt as if I were in a spy movie.  Why so much security?”

“Both Ryuzaki and I work in law enforcement, he is a private detective and sometimes we make enemies. Just a little bit of extra caution on our part.”

“I see,” Takashi said as he looked around the apartment, “This is very nice, tastefully done.  Certainly not to my standards, but very nice,” he turned to Light, “Obviously a lot richer than what a detective in the NPA would make.  I imagine this Ryuzaki has a good deal of money from his private detective business.”  Light only smiled in reply.

“What can I get you for your night cap?” he asked instead going to the bar.

“A brandy would be a nice cap to this evening,” he answered, “Please have one with me.”  Light nodded and poured two, handing one to Takashi.

“I wish you luck in finding out who killed Makota,” he said in the way of a toast, “And a hope that we can continue to be friends.”   Light sipped the alcohol and nodded.

“Thank you, but I’m fairly sure I’m on the right track with that,” he said gesturing to Takashi to sit down as he did, “And I see no reason why we cannot continue to be friends, I enjoy your company.”

“Thank you,” Takashi said moving a bit closer to Light, “And now I wonder exactly what the boundaries of friendship are for you?”   Light looked at him confused but for only a moment.

“Mr.  Hayami…”

“Takashi…please,” he was reminded.

“Takashi, when I say friend that is exactly what I mean.  Ryuzaki..”

“Isn’t here for whatever reason,” the agent answered placing his drink on the table, “And I would never dream of interfering in your relationship with him.  However,” he leaned closer to Light’s face, raising a hand to gently touch it, “You can’t tell me that you are not missing that special warmth that comes from human contact, that special feeling that only comes with the sharing of one’s bodies.  I don’t wish to take you away from Ryuzaki, I’m not the type for long relationships or commitment, but I do enjoy warmth, and human contact, don’t you?”  His fingers graced lightly across Light's face, barely touching him but enough for Light to feel the heat from them.

The worst thing about that touch was that he was right; Light was missing that touch, that warmth.  The side of him that was angry with L pushed him to enjoy the touch, that it was all L’s fault in the first place.  His eyes closed for a moment and then suddenly snapped open, moving away from the touch and shook his head.

“Yes, I do enjoy it, but with only one person,” he said standing up, “I appreciate your friendship Takashi, but that’s where it has to stay, I won’t cheat on Ryuzaki.”   The agent sighed and sipped at his brandy again, then stood up as well.

“Well, if you ‘re sure,” he said moving closer to Light, “But I wouldn’t worry about the idea of cheating on Ryuzaki,” he said, “Consider this merely an extended friendship, nothing more.  Two adults enjoying the pleasures available to them, until your Ryuzaki returns.  What could possibly be wrong with that?” he leaned forward again, aiming for Light’s mouth with his.

L and Watari stepped out of the elevator, L barely able to conceal his excitement at being home again.  This was where he belonged; this was where he felt complete.  Wammy’s no longer held that allure for him; it belonged to the boys now. He turned to Watari and smiled at him.

“Thank you for keeping this a secret from Light.  You get some rest, I’m sure we’ll be fine for the rest of the evening.”  Watari nodded giving him a knowing smile.

“Oh I’m sure you will be, good night L,” he said and went into his own apartment.  L watched him go then went to his own door, pushing it open quietly in case Light was sleeping.  He stepped in then stopped dead at what was before him.

“I can’t think of one thing that should stop us from enjoying each other,” Takashi was saying as he zeroed in on Light’s mouth, Light pulling away, placing his hand on the man’s chest to keep him away.

“I can think of many,” L said dropping his bag and moving towards them.  Light jumped the moment he heard L’s voice, moving quickly away from Takashi and moving towards L.

“Oh my god you ‘re back! Why didn’t you call me?” he asked as he walked quickly to L.

“And miss this touching display? I knew you liked to bring your work home with you but I believe you have outdone yourself this time.” L hissed, moving away from him.

“No…no it’s not what you think…” Light began and L cut him off moving quickly towards Takashi

“I know who you are, Takashi Hayami and I know all about you,” he told him, “And I will tell you that despite your reputation, this is one conquest you will not have and if you continue to try you will lose the very instrument you intended to use.”

Takashi tried to laugh off L’s threat but found he couldn’t as he stared into the most intense set of eyes he had ever seen.  If he could see danger in Light’s eyes, what he saw in L’s almost frightened him.

“Well, you can’t blame a man for trying,” he said finally being able to plaster a smile on his face, “And I congratulate you for holding on to his heart as you’ve managed to do, I doubt I would have gotten anywhere at all even if you hadn’t walked in.  Good night.” He moved quickly past L and out of the door.  L then turned to face Light.

“Is he right? Or would he have gotten somewhere if I hadn’t walked in?” L demanded and Light stared back at him in shock.

“How can you ask me that?” Light demanded, “You know I wouldn’t have, I love you!” L turned away from him.

“It didn’t seem as if you were fighting him too hard, not that I blame you,” he said quietly.

Light grabbed him and turned him around to face him, his emotions running from anger, to relief to hurt.

“Don’t you dare walk in here after leaving me alone for so long, for no real reason, and accuse me of wanting to sleep with someone else!”  L reached up and caressed Light’s face, his eyes filling with tears.

“If you did want to, I drove you to it, and I’m so sorry.  But I won’t let you go, I can’t let you go.  I will fight for you, Light.”  Light closed his eyes at L’s touch, his own tears building up as he leaned into it and shook his head.

“There’s nothing to fight for L, I’m here.  I told you I’d be here when you got back and I am.  Nothing’s changed, I still love you more than anything in this world, and you are my life, L.” He opened his eyes and pulled L to him, roughly holding the detective’s face in his hands.

“I love you,” he told him and kissed him as hard as he could, crying into the kiss as their lips met for the first time in so long.  L’s arms went around his neck; his hands going into Light’s hair as he kissed him back just as fiercely.   When Light pulled away, he kissed L’s face and then his mouth again before leaning his forehead against L’s.

“I’m so sorry, this was a lousy homecoming for you. Why didn’t you call me and tell me you were coming home?” Light asked him and L sighed.

“I wanted to surprise you, I wanted to see your face when I walked in when you weren’t expecting it,” he chuckled, “I guess I got what I asked for.”  Light shook his head before kissing him again, his hands now running up and down his back.

“Come on, let’s go to bed. You must be exhausted from the flight and everything you walked into to.” he said when he released him, and L nodded.

“I am exhausted,” L admitted then ran his hands down Light’s chest before taking his hand and heading towards the bedroom.  “Are you sure I haven’t lost you at all, that your feelings haven’t changed?  Why was he even here?” Light ran a hand through his hair and looked away.

“To be honest L, I was desperate for company, and conversation and he is…a lot like you.  We made some progress on the case and he offered to take me to dinner and I…I guess I gave in and accepted the invitation.   He brought me home afterwards, asked for a night cap and then…”

“Never mind I know what happened next,” L answered a little of the anger rising again, “And I am sorry I forced you to be in this position.  I suggest you let Matsuda deal with him from now on when you ‘re working on this case.  I would hate to have to make him disappear.”  Light chuckled as he closed the bedroom door.

“I’m sure there won’t be any problems with him,” he said then gazed at L again, reaching up to caress his face, “I will admit being angry with you, that you had left, but my love for you hasn’t changed, it couldn’t.”  they both got undressed and crawled into the bed, L climbing into Light’s arms, resting his head on Light’s chest.

“I’m sorry for leaving you Light, it was wrong. I love you,” he whispered kissing his chest. Light ran his fingers up and down L’s back and kissed the top of his head.

“I love you too,” he answered, “And I’m just glad you ‘re home. No more talking, get some rest.” He said and felt L nod against him.  

As he felt L’s body relax against him, his mind went over everything he’d felt before L had come home; the resentment, the anger, the upset at feeling so weak without him.  All of that just didn’t matter anymore now that L was in his arms again. He had come close to slipping with Takashi, but he didn’t and that’s what was important.  He closed his eyes and tightened his grip around L.  There were definite wounds that had to be dealt with, but he’d worry about that later; right now he was just happy that L was home.
Just in case anyone's still interested in seeing info on that musical in Japan, there is an official FaceBook page for it.…

It is in Japanese but there's a translation option there for most of it.  It has pictures of both actors that are doing Light and L and I have to tell you they look brilliant.

Also, apparently in Japan they released a new version of the color...that they 're keeping to themselves.  It's only available on Amazon in Japan and can only be purchased with a Japanese credit card.  I don't know why they're being so mean about sharing it with the West, but they are.  I've seen what it looks like, it 's absolutely beautiful and it's so unfair.  But if any of you have any friends in Japan, perhaps you can persuade them to get it for you!

Good luck!


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Love anime/manga, my fav and obsession is Death Note and my heart belongs to L. I love the pairing of L and Light coz it keeps them alive and happy which is why I began writing LxLight fanfaction (also because much of what I was reading was horrible and consistently sad and tragic. If I wanted more of that I'd just rewatch the anime) I also love Disney, musical theatre, Star Trek (TOS), The Beatles, Dr Who and my Xbox. My family is my life and aging is my enemy and I refuse to acknowledge it.

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Rawr ;P
Sat Jun 21, 2014, 8:23 AM
BOY LOLLIPOP! (... I had too. XD To tempting)
Mon Mar 4, 2013, 3:10 PM
*casually comments in shoutbox* :heart::la:
Mon Feb 4, 2013, 6:03 AM
You are so awesome!
Tue Dec 18, 2012, 3:02 PM
thanks so much for the fav!!! haha [link]
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Disney!!!! :w00t:
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BluePop-Corn Featured By Owner Oct 3, 2014  Student General Artist
Thank you for the fav!Adorable Girl Anime Emoji (Double kawaii wink) V6
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Thank you for joining :iconthefirecrackers: i hope you enjoy my characters, group and story :)
dotti55 Featured By Owner Sep 20, 2014
You're welcome, definitely interesting idea!
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Thanks. Glad you think so :happycry:
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Thank you so much for the fav>v<
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You are so welcome!!
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